theres something wrong..definately.

why isit that i can feel so high one moment then the next moment something happen the whoosh everything goes downhill.
why do i not react the same way which i used to when stuff happen to me.
why does there always seem to be this burden hanging there when everyhting is supposedly alrite on the surface.
why do i feel so unsure of myself.
why do i have no control over what i want to do and what i should do.

gosh so frightening. is this jus a phrase or what? will i be like this? why is this happening?

i hate the way things are now. a change. immediately.