sports adventure camp

hahaha im back!!! and im so super happiee! :) also dunno happiee for wad..maybe cos i can eat sleep bathe whenever i want? aiyah dun care larh..im HAPPIEE and tt's all that matters..hahas..

this camp was kinda fun..but not realli THAT fun..not as good as the previous one. that one was realli good! is like we pitched tents on the campsite near the sea then every morning we wake up can see the waters and hear the horns from the port..that was soo nice..though it'll be kinda cold in the early mornings.

okaes..'bout this camp..we slept in this plae which weirdly resembles a pig sty..nonono not tt it's very dirty or wad but jus tt tt was wad i thought when i first saw tt place. if u see from the outside arh..the walls are painted in a coat of light yellow if im not wrong..then u look up can see this criss-crossing cage thingy which is supposed to help air circulate. on the inside, it's realli dark..even if u on the lights..kinda creepy if not for soo many pple inside. the '5-stars' beds they issued to us were actually quite good and best of all..they're green!! hahas but they're kinda uncomfortable..2nd day i woke up with stiff neck, todae i woke up with a very painful back. haha but now im soo relived dun ever have to queue up to bathe or wet all my clothes in an attempt to change inside the wet toilets. yaye!!

we did loads of stuff there..messy weird activities. haha wad do u think of sun-tannig urself for 2 hours stright, rolling crawling in mud literally, going throught this complicated network of strings, throwing chickens around, getting drenched in mud and rain but not allowed to bathe till like an hour later? haha yess that's wad we do..i noe it doesnt sound like much fun..but it is!! esp the rolling on mud tt part..it's supposed to be part of a challenge..i luv it!! we did rafting, casualty challenge, 4-way captains ball, campfire and camp idol and had this workshpo 'bout drugs and getting the right attitude toward success. ooh i'd like to emphasize on the 4-way captains ball..u noe we were actually throwing uncooked raw disgusting slimy CHICKENS around..eeeeeks..yesss it's part of the 4th way of the 4 way captain's ball..every group must try to get their hands on the chicken and throw it into thier group's hoop..jus that no one dared to defend erms the chicken. imagine this dead chicken flying through the air then ended up on the ground or in someone's hands then tt person threw agin..this time a big crowd of 6 over pple were trrying to get hold to it..the poor chicken became the tug-of-war thing..the guts spinal cord stomachs juices were spilling out..all the body parts were soon torn apart...eeeeeeks..haha then guess wad we had for lunch right after that..CHICKEN!!! haha and it tasted a bit the rusty leh..-shivers-

the pple there were quite nice..some of them are realli sweet..okaes here are a few..cal, vivian, sara, michelle and blahblah. i only got to noe them better after the campfire where everybody got soo high then joined hands together and partied dance n sing from 10+ to 12pm.everyone was like super hyper..we started jumping 'round, chasing pple, forming circles then took loads of pics. till twelve when we were chased for lights out,,hahaha soo fun the spirit in there was realli niceee! =)

haha okaes wont type anymore..no one wld bother to read such a big chunk of words anyway..haha soo tired though i slept for like 4 hours straight after comming back from sch before being bombarded by calls when i woke up..-yawns-
im tired..later cannot wake up tmr morning..aiyaya good nites

letting go

everything i see that is related to it, i cant seemed to bear to even look at it. saw it on tv that challenge thing..din noe wad to do..felt so lost and confused. i noe ive not totally given up on it..it's realli hard..sometimes it hurts a lot but thinking on the positive side of life helps.like thinking want i want in life tt sort of thing. hmph.
i noe i still stand i chance to create a whole new opputunity for myself..but im not sure whethere do i still wanna hang on to it. looking back, it seems realli like a nightmare..juggling this with that and that..no idea how i actually managed to cope with all those..i dont think i wanna go through the whole nightmare again..but it's like maybe..nemind

catchin' up

i want to watch the incredibles, the polar express, saw, christmas with the kranks..but now i cant go out! as in like if it's nthg impt jus go out shopping and watch movies tt kind cannot..arrgh isnt this the same as being grounded?! i dont like staying at home! always try to drag as long as i can in school then come back stone in front of the com...haha aiyoh x) -frowns-
i promised myself to read at least 100 pages of the he zhong xue shen tan li shi book but now only at pg 67..blahh..must read, must read, must read, must read..and the meng xiang du shu too! and must do my maths tuition hw and must read through the sci tb (exclusive of tt eeeeks chapt.) and read all the 4 bks. i borrowed from lib...must read, must read, must read..-scratches head-

malay danceee

hahaha..over the moon!..red cross was fun..like jus keep presenting and presenting, spent half of the time laughing away =) then when we start doing tt dance thing we either burst out laugh or go blank..then my mind also go blank..almost forgot everything..haha but it's fun anyways. realli din noe tt malay dance can be soo fun..hahah last time i saw malay dance im like eeeeeks malay dance?! but now ive totally fallen in love with it..haha realise im always the one forgetting all the steps and everything..then they're like must rmbr this must rmbr tt kae..haha then when we perform i still forgot..argh -bleah- opps..sorri i hereby officially apologise to all the helloers sorri for being the most piggified of u all..hahaha we all must co-operate super super super well together kaes..hahas!

fighting committing giving

just wondering..why did i fight so hard for it in the start only to let go of it in the end without even a struggle? it dint make me feel sad, angry, disappointed or wadever..it just left me feeling very confused. was i lack of that capability..will a little bit of luck change everything..have i ever belonged there..-sighs-
feeling very happiee now..hahahaha i noe i dont sound like it larh..but it's this kind of happiness when all of a sudden the burden fall from the shoulders...then i heard a ' thud', but ive no idea where it came from..is it the sound of the heart sinking or is it simply the burden falling to the ground? *confused*
haha but there's one thing im realli sure of..i dont regret committing to it, what i got in return was more than what i asked for. it taught me time management [though tt was the worst period of time ive ever managed my time], believing in myself, seeing everything in a positive light, and somhow or other i was more sure of myself and what i wanna do in my future. ive never had such definite goals in my life before..i noe what i want for myself in the future, what i wanna grow up to be, what i want to do next time and stuff like that..but haha nahh not telling..i dont think u realli wanna know either..but it's enough for myself to know =)

hohoho

im at home by myself, like finally..some privacy and personal space..haha. jus realised that by some miracle, my sis. 's able to hack into this blog so everything that im typing now she can actually see..hmph..okaes..i noe u r reading this..hello =)

bored..heh

okaes..haha i noe im realli silly and blur but u pple so tootified must keep on rubbing it in..hahas at least i admit it rites..hahaha =) oh u noe yesterdae i spent some half hour or so typing some stuff to make this blog more readable but aiyoh..i forgot to connect myself to the internet and the whole thing jus disappeared!! argh.

yess..im soo happiee!..and tired too... : ) got red cross meeting almost everydae this week..cos we're all rushing to meet the 4th Dec dateline..trying to get organised and buck up before sat ..eeeks freaky..wad if we cant? okaes..nvm..we can do it!! haha my mum is super sick of me going back to sch for rc almost everydae..she never fails to complain it over the dinner table -groans-...but i cant get enough of it!! sometimes it can get kinda boring
but it feels great knowing that we are all co-operating well with each other and we're progressing steadily..and it's like everytime we go for a meeting, we're taking one more step forward..yaye!

HAPPIEE =) *smiles*