like a soldier on the battlefield, tired of all the lost battles, the way he had to keep giving himself reasons to carry on. what has he given his life to, one that he had not asked for. living not for himself, but to do what he knew he must do. who sees beneath the seeminly impertuable armour, what really lies inside, a man full of bottled-up fear, doubts and insecurity. he thinks all soldiers are supposed to be brave and its not right to break down. so he doesnt.