i missssss

i miss something/ someone a lot and i dont know what/ who is it. this is bad, i wish someone would inflate me, then take a needle to poke me. then i can deflate and disappear. so that i wont feel so strange anymore, then i will know what to do with myself.
you know, like you have so mnay many emotions whirling inside but somehow, you feel hollow.

hollow hollow hollow.

you know, i miss frisbee. i miss the company. i miss youall. it sucks when everyones still playing and everyones getting awesome and acs frisbee is gettign awesome and the year 5s are so awesomely bonded and all my friends so get to hang out together on tues and fridays and i'm, i'm just not there.
today i walked past them and it felt like a million years ago that i used to train with them every tues and thurs. i thought i wont miss frisbeeeee. i thought i would be glad to like you know, let go. but still?
i miss the company. i dont like walking pass some of you and thinking, oh hanging out with you guys used to be so much fun, what happened? okay fine i know what happened, but still? i miss the awesome company. but besides tiff and lav whom i keep going like i miss you both i dont see you both anymore the rest probably dont think about me anymore.

okay now i sound like such a sad pathetic girl, phew they prob dont know this place, then i can go around school pretending im just tired.
i'm not really tired. not tired at all actually.

if you inflat me and i become a balloon, i can float around, happily ever afterrrr