faith isn't gonna be easy!

It's awfully awful how I would rather talk on msn with friends than to spend more time with God each day. Everytime it's God or online, it's always online. Most of the time anyway. Even worse, even when it's work or God, more often than not it's work.

I was telling Sean just now, it's so diffucult to love someone you can't see physically, you know? Like if Jesus is still here physically with me and I can run to Him (literally) when I'm upset, and just bury myself within His's warm embrace, if I can talk to Him and hear his voice overflowing with wisedom and love, if I could just hold His hands and know that these are the same hands that made the stars, heavens and mountains, IT WOULD BE EASIER.

I know nobody said faith was gonna be easy. And that faith won't be faith anymore if we can see him and know for a fact He is God. But, you know? No you don't.