haha oh my so happiee todae. our malay dance prac. is finally FUN like it hasnt been for a long long time. hahahahahha yaye!! cos rite..for the past one week or so our prac is like so dead..like everyone jus come for the sake of comming not because was realli want to. the atmosphere was totally dreadful then we jus sit around and everyone was so awkwardly quiet.
there was no drive..no passion..no this sense of urgency thing. okaes maybe its not as bad as i make it sound to be..oh wells.
but todae was super cool. hahaha we did so much! not realli alot compared to last time when we used to stay in the dance studio from morning to 6pm then kept on practising. but im so proud of ourselves todae! and i think we kinda bonded..like somehow..through the stripey hello.
oh yess..introducing..the stripey hello!! haha yarh. it's the christmas present that huanting gave me. it's a realli cute looking and soft and cuddley and nice. then they said that whenever they see this they will smile so it became our mascolt or whatever the spelling is.
okaes this's from somewhere..not my line..copied from someone and i think it's realli inspirational..'the traditional dance catergory championship is ours! dont let other schools take it away from us! we must grab it! yeah!'
haha was realli motivated when i read this..so yah jia you!!
Monday, December 27, 2004
argh
why everyone's able to like put in words their feelings and everything. then im like stuck there by myself. it's horrible. realli. envious of those who can put it down on paper their thoughts and stuff like that then put it down and get away with it. surely there's many others worse off then me rites..maybe they're all around me jus that they're hiding it? haha but wads the point.
it's so cold in here. it's so dead. i hate it. i wanna find back the passion we once had for it..haha more like i once had for it rites..nonono but can actually see it's not only me. we were once all 'on fire'..i wanna find that fire back..that fire which once lit up my life, which made everything jus seemed soo nice..that fire which i love so much..i want it back!
it's so cold in here. it's so dead. i hate it. i wanna find back the passion we once had for it..haha more like i once had for it rites..nonono but can actually see it's not only me. we were once all 'on fire'..i wanna find that fire back..that fire which once lit up my life, which made everything jus seemed soo nice..that fire which i love so much..i want it back!
Saturday, December 25, 2004
haha christmas's over! i noe it's a bit the abnormal to rejoice over the passing of christmas..but i realli so so so happiee that it's over..haha missed you pple soo much!! besides liqin, havent seen u all these few days. oh yah tt dae i went out with liqin to watch this movie called dunno whatever oprea thing then in the end the queue was so super long tt we went to lido instead. haha we were like going around borrowing newspaper to see the screenings of all the movies..in the end we were like let's watch Nobody Knows. and tt movie was super super nice!! i norminate it to be the best movie of 2004..the whole thing was in jap so we were forced to read the subtittles. but still it's a great movie..everyone must go and watch it! =)
sher: haha ooh merry christmas to you too. and for your info arch..you've always been lame and super hyper..so yah cant imagine wad u're like after all the chocs. :))
cara: merry christmas to you too =).. though a belated one
yakky: i think i noe who u r haha..sinwen mm rites..im so smart :) oh and thanks so much for ure encouragements..yesss i believe we can do it too. haha take care and have fun for these few months until u have to start sch again..haha
sin linny: sinlin!! meerrrry christmas and a very happiee new year to you! luv u loads. haha yarh no wonder the tagg thingy said u are too wordy..it did tt to me lots of times too..then i purposely be wordy to make it say tt im too wordy..fun rites. haha nemind..liqin and i will pass u and huanting n anabel's presents in sch too.
rachel: sorri rach ure syl cat is a bit hard to find..so got u smthg else instead. pass it to u when i see u in sch k? and thanks for ur present..btw wad do u mean by i only look sweet and innocent? haha
sher: haha ooh merry christmas to you too. and for your info arch..you've always been lame and super hyper..so yah cant imagine wad u're like after all the chocs. :))
cara: merry christmas to you too =).. though a belated one
yakky: i think i noe who u r haha..sinwen mm rites..im so smart :) oh and thanks so much for ure encouragements..yesss i believe we can do it too. haha take care and have fun for these few months until u have to start sch again..haha
sin linny: sinlin!! meerrrry christmas and a very happiee new year to you! luv u loads. haha yarh no wonder the tagg thingy said u are too wordy..it did tt to me lots of times too..then i purposely be wordy to make it say tt im too wordy..fun rites. haha nemind..liqin and i will pass u and huanting n anabel's presents in sch too.
rachel: sorri rach ure syl cat is a bit hard to find..so got u smthg else instead. pass it to u when i see u in sch k? and thanks for ur present..btw wad do u mean by i only look sweet and innocent? haha
Thursday, December 23, 2004
THE TWO SEAS..
haha here's an extract from a book..it's realli nice and i think it makes loads of sense too..
the two seas of Palestine-
there are two seas in Palestine. one is fresh, fish are in it. splashes of green adorn its banks. trees spread their branches over it and stretch out their thristy roots to sip of its healing water.
..the River Jordan makes this sea with sparkling water from the hills. so it laughs in the sunshine. and men build their houses near to it, birds their nests; and every kind of life is happier because it it there.
the River Jordan flows on south into another sea.
here there is no of fish, no fluttering leaf, no song of birds, no children's laugher. travellers choose another route, unless on urgent business. the air hangs heavy above its water, neither man nor beast nor fowl will drink.
what makes this mighty difference in these neighbour seas? not the River Jordan. it empties the same good water into both. not the soil in which they lie; not in the country round about.
this is the differnce. the Sea of Galilee recieves but does not keep the Jordan. for every drop that flows into it another drop flows out. the giving and recieving go in equal measure.
the other sea is shrewder, hoarding its income jealously. it will not be tempted into any generous impulse. every drop it gets, it keeps.
the Sea of Galilee gives and lives. this other sea givs nothing. it is named the Dead.
there are two kinds of people in this world. there are two seas in Palestine.
the two seas of Palestine-
there are two seas in Palestine. one is fresh, fish are in it. splashes of green adorn its banks. trees spread their branches over it and stretch out their thristy roots to sip of its healing water.
..the River Jordan makes this sea with sparkling water from the hills. so it laughs in the sunshine. and men build their houses near to it, birds their nests; and every kind of life is happier because it it there.
the River Jordan flows on south into another sea.
here there is no of fish, no fluttering leaf, no song of birds, no children's laugher. travellers choose another route, unless on urgent business. the air hangs heavy above its water, neither man nor beast nor fowl will drink.
what makes this mighty difference in these neighbour seas? not the River Jordan. it empties the same good water into both. not the soil in which they lie; not in the country round about.
this is the differnce. the Sea of Galilee recieves but does not keep the Jordan. for every drop that flows into it another drop flows out. the giving and recieving go in equal measure.
the other sea is shrewder, hoarding its income jealously. it will not be tempted into any generous impulse. every drop it gets, it keeps.
the Sea of Galilee gives and lives. this other sea givs nothing. it is named the Dead.
there are two kinds of people in this world. there are two seas in Palestine.
-adapted from the 7 habits of highly effective teenager
which adapted from the man nobody knows by bruce barton
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Saturday, December 18, 2004
haha i jus realised how come everyone is going like 'you dint up-date ure blog 'to me..that's like so stupid im super sloww..haha cos i changed my blogg address then forgot to tell all those who linked me haha no wonder -bleah-. that old one was munching-on-diet..then i changed to munching-is-falling..haha but now i changed it back again..or else so ma fun leh..hahah =)
Friday, December 17, 2004
sports adventure camp
hahaha im back!!! and im so super happiee! :) also dunno happiee for wad..maybe cos i can eat sleep bathe whenever i want? aiyah dun care larh..im HAPPIEE and tt's all that matters..hahas..
this camp was kinda fun..but not realli THAT fun..not as good as the previous one. that one was realli good! is like we pitched tents on the campsite near the sea then every morning we wake up can see the waters and hear the horns from the port..that was soo nice..though it'll be kinda cold in the early mornings.
okaes..'bout this camp..we slept in this plae which weirdly resembles a pig sty..nonono not tt it's very dirty or wad but jus tt tt was wad i thought when i first saw tt place. if u see from the outside arh..the walls are painted in a coat of light yellow if im not wrong..then u look up can see this criss-crossing cage thingy which is supposed to help air circulate. on the inside, it's realli dark..even if u on the lights..kinda creepy if not for soo many pple inside. the '5-stars' beds they issued to us were actually quite good and best of all..they're green!! hahas but they're kinda uncomfortable..2nd day i woke up with stiff neck, todae i woke up with a very painful back. haha but now im soo relived dun ever have to queue up to bathe or wet all my clothes in an attempt to change inside the wet toilets. yaye!!
we did loads of stuff there..messy weird activities. haha wad do u think of sun-tannig urself for 2 hours stright, rolling crawling in mud literally, going throught this complicated network of strings, throwing chickens around, getting drenched in mud and rain but not allowed to bathe till like an hour later? haha yess that's wad we do..i noe it doesnt sound like much fun..but it is!! esp the rolling on mud tt part..it's supposed to be part of a challenge..i luv it!! we did rafting, casualty challenge, 4-way captains ball, campfire and camp idol and had this workshpo 'bout drugs and getting the right attitude toward success. ooh i'd like to emphasize on the 4-way captains ball..u noe we were actually throwing uncooked raw disgusting slimy CHICKENS around..eeeeeks..yesss it's part of the 4th way of the 4 way captain's ball..every group must try to get their hands on the chicken and throw it into thier group's hoop..jus that no one dared to defend erms the chicken. imagine this dead chicken flying through the air then ended up on the ground or in someone's hands then tt person threw agin..this time a big crowd of 6 over pple were trrying to get hold to it..the poor chicken became the tug-of-war thing..the guts spinal cord stomachs juices were spilling out..all the body parts were soon torn apart...eeeeeeks..haha then guess wad we had for lunch right after that..CHICKEN!!! haha and it tasted a bit the rusty leh..-shivers-
the pple there were quite nice..some of them are realli sweet..okaes here are a few..cal, vivian, sara, michelle and blahblah. i only got to noe them better after the campfire where everybody got soo high then joined hands together and partied dance n sing from 10+ to 12pm.everyone was like super hyper..we started jumping 'round, chasing pple, forming circles then took loads of pics. till twelve when we were chased for lights out,,hahaha soo fun the spirit in there was realli niceee! =)
haha okaes wont type anymore..no one wld bother to read such a big chunk of words anyway..haha soo tired though i slept for like 4 hours straight after comming back from sch before being bombarded by calls when i woke up..-yawns-
im tired..later cannot wake up tmr morning..aiyaya good nites
this camp was kinda fun..but not realli THAT fun..not as good as the previous one. that one was realli good! is like we pitched tents on the campsite near the sea then every morning we wake up can see the waters and hear the horns from the port..that was soo nice..though it'll be kinda cold in the early mornings.
okaes..'bout this camp..we slept in this plae which weirdly resembles a pig sty..nonono not tt it's very dirty or wad but jus tt tt was wad i thought when i first saw tt place. if u see from the outside arh..the walls are painted in a coat of light yellow if im not wrong..then u look up can see this criss-crossing cage thingy which is supposed to help air circulate. on the inside, it's realli dark..even if u on the lights..kinda creepy if not for soo many pple inside. the '5-stars' beds they issued to us were actually quite good and best of all..they're green!! hahas but they're kinda uncomfortable..2nd day i woke up with stiff neck, todae i woke up with a very painful back. haha but now im soo relived dun ever have to queue up to bathe or wet all my clothes in an attempt to change inside the wet toilets. yaye!!
we did loads of stuff there..messy weird activities. haha wad do u think of sun-tannig urself for 2 hours stright, rolling crawling in mud literally, going throught this complicated network of strings, throwing chickens around, getting drenched in mud and rain but not allowed to bathe till like an hour later? haha yess that's wad we do..i noe it doesnt sound like much fun..but it is!! esp the rolling on mud tt part..it's supposed to be part of a challenge..i luv it!! we did rafting, casualty challenge, 4-way captains ball, campfire and camp idol and had this workshpo 'bout drugs and getting the right attitude toward success. ooh i'd like to emphasize on the 4-way captains ball..u noe we were actually throwing uncooked raw disgusting slimy CHICKENS around..eeeeeks..yesss it's part of the 4th way of the 4 way captain's ball..every group must try to get their hands on the chicken and throw it into thier group's hoop..jus that no one dared to defend erms the chicken. imagine this dead chicken flying through the air then ended up on the ground or in someone's hands then tt person threw agin..this time a big crowd of 6 over pple were trrying to get hold to it..the poor chicken became the tug-of-war thing..the guts spinal cord stomachs juices were spilling out..all the body parts were soon torn apart...eeeeeeks..haha then guess wad we had for lunch right after that..CHICKEN!!! haha and it tasted a bit the rusty leh..-shivers-
the pple there were quite nice..some of them are realli sweet..okaes here are a few..cal, vivian, sara, michelle and blahblah. i only got to noe them better after the campfire where everybody got soo high then joined hands together and partied dance n sing from 10+ to 12pm.everyone was like super hyper..we started jumping 'round, chasing pple, forming circles then took loads of pics. till twelve when we were chased for lights out,,hahaha soo fun the spirit in there was realli niceee! =)
haha okaes wont type anymore..no one wld bother to read such a big chunk of words anyway..haha soo tired though i slept for like 4 hours straight after comming back from sch before being bombarded by calls when i woke up..-yawns-
im tired..later cannot wake up tmr morning..aiyaya good nites
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
letting go
everything i see that is related to it, i cant seemed to bear to even look at it. saw it on tv that challenge thing..din noe wad to do..felt so lost and confused. i noe ive not totally given up on it..it's realli hard..sometimes it hurts a lot but thinking on the positive side of life helps.like thinking want i want in life tt sort of thing. hmph.
i noe i still stand i chance to create a whole new opputunity for myself..but im not sure whethere do i still wanna hang on to it. looking back, it seems realli like a nightmare..juggling this with that and that..no idea how i actually managed to cope with all those..i dont think i wanna go through the whole nightmare again..but it's like maybe..nemind
i noe i still stand i chance to create a whole new opputunity for myself..but im not sure whethere do i still wanna hang on to it. looking back, it seems realli like a nightmare..juggling this with that and that..no idea how i actually managed to cope with all those..i dont think i wanna go through the whole nightmare again..but it's like maybe..nemind
catchin' up
i want to watch the incredibles, the polar express, saw, christmas with the kranks..but now i cant go out! as in like if it's nthg impt jus go out shopping and watch movies tt kind cannot..arrgh isnt this the same as being grounded?! i dont like staying at home! always try to drag as long as i can in school then come back stone in front of the com...haha aiyoh x) -frowns-
i promised myself to read at least 100 pages of the he zhong xue shen tan li shi book but now only at pg 67..blahh..must read, must read, must read, must read..and the meng xiang du shu too! and must do my maths tuition hw and must read through the sci tb (exclusive of tt eeeeks chapt.) and read all the 4 bks. i borrowed from lib...must read, must read, must read..-scratches head-
i promised myself to read at least 100 pages of the he zhong xue shen tan li shi book but now only at pg 67..blahh..must read, must read, must read, must read..and the meng xiang du shu too! and must do my maths tuition hw and must read through the sci tb (exclusive of tt eeeeks chapt.) and read all the 4 bks. i borrowed from lib...must read, must read, must read..-scratches head-
malay danceee
hahaha..over the moon!..red cross was fun..like jus keep presenting and presenting, spent half of the time laughing away =) then when we start doing tt dance thing we either burst out laugh or go blank..then my mind also go blank..almost forgot everything..haha but it's fun anyways. realli din noe tt malay dance can be soo fun..hahah last time i saw malay dance im like eeeeeks malay dance?! but now ive totally fallen in love with it..haha realise im always the one forgetting all the steps and everything..then they're like must rmbr this must rmbr tt kae..haha then when we perform i still forgot..argh -bleah- opps..sorri i hereby officially apologise to all the helloers sorri for being the most piggified of u all..hahaha we all must co-operate super super super well together kaes..hahas!
Sunday, December 05, 2004
fighting committing giving
just wondering..why did i fight so hard for it in the start only to let go of it in the end without even a struggle? it dint make me feel sad, angry, disappointed or wadever..it just left me feeling very confused. was i lack of that capability..will a little bit of luck change everything..have i ever belonged there..-sighs-
feeling very happiee now..hahahaha i noe i dont sound like it larh..but it's this kind of happiness when all of a sudden the burden fall from the shoulders...then i heard a ' thud', but ive no idea where it came from..is it the sound of the heart sinking or is it simply the burden falling to the ground? *confused*
haha but there's one thing im realli sure of..i dont regret committing to it, what i got in return was more than what i asked for. it taught me time management [though tt was the worst period of time ive ever managed my time], believing in myself, seeing everything in a positive light, and somhow or other i was more sure of myself and what i wanna do in my future. ive never had such definite goals in my life before..i noe what i want for myself in the future, what i wanna grow up to be, what i want to do next time and stuff like that..but haha nahh not telling..i dont think u realli wanna know either..but it's enough for myself to know =)
feeling very happiee now..hahahaha i noe i dont sound like it larh..but it's this kind of happiness when all of a sudden the burden fall from the shoulders...then i heard a ' thud', but ive no idea where it came from..is it the sound of the heart sinking or is it simply the burden falling to the ground? *confused*
haha but there's one thing im realli sure of..i dont regret committing to it, what i got in return was more than what i asked for. it taught me time management [though tt was the worst period of time ive ever managed my time], believing in myself, seeing everything in a positive light, and somhow or other i was more sure of myself and what i wanna do in my future. ive never had such definite goals in my life before..i noe what i want for myself in the future, what i wanna grow up to be, what i want to do next time and stuff like that..but haha nahh not telling..i dont think u realli wanna know either..but it's enough for myself to know =)
hohoho
im at home by myself, like finally..some privacy and personal space..haha. jus realised that by some miracle, my sis. 's able to hack into this blog so everything that im typing now she can actually see..hmph..okaes..i noe u r reading this..hello =)
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
bored..heh
okaes..haha i noe im realli silly and blur but u pple so tootified must keep on rubbing it in..hahas at least i admit it rites..hahaha =) oh u noe yesterdae i spent some half hour or so typing some stuff to make this blog more readable but aiyoh..i forgot to connect myself to the internet and the whole thing jus disappeared!! argh.
yess..im soo happiee!..and tired too... : ) got red cross meeting almost everydae this week..cos we're all rushing to meet the 4th Dec dateline..trying to get organised and buck up before sat ..eeeks freaky..wad if we cant? okaes..nvm..we can do it!! haha my mum is super sick of me going back to sch for rc almost everydae..she never fails to complain it over the dinner table -groans-...but i cant get enough of it!! sometimes it can get kinda boring
but it feels great knowing that we are all co-operating well with each other and we're progressing steadily..and it's like everytime we go for a meeting, we're taking one more step forward..yaye!
HAPPIEE =) *smiles*
yess..im soo happiee!..and tired too... : ) got red cross meeting almost everydae this week..cos we're all rushing to meet the 4th Dec dateline..trying to get organised and buck up before sat ..eeeks freaky..wad if we cant? okaes..nvm..we can do it!! haha my mum is super sick of me going back to sch for rc almost everydae..she never fails to complain it over the dinner table -groans-...but i cant get enough of it!! sometimes it can get kinda boring
but it feels great knowing that we are all co-operating well with each other and we're progressing steadily..and it's like everytime we go for a meeting, we're taking one more step forward..yaye!
HAPPIEE =) *smiles*
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