so much has happened and my lifes so diff now from how it was when i last blogged. feeling soso diff now, no stress, but with this new feeling of redundant-ness htat i havent felt for this whole year. wiht this post the last post at the end will dissappear and pooff it ll really be there no more. it seems weird since im like cut off frm it for quite some time already, but when somehting triggers that feeling it ll all come back and really, its non-replaceable. and i love that feeling, kinda sad feeling but yeah, its a happy thing that it once happened=)