tirple sci or bio chem? mrsyogee[sp check] said if you want to pursue medcine then shld go for it cos apparently they'll then consider you as a better sci student overall. can i cope? will it pull down my overall? will it jus stress me up? will i be unhappy?bahh.

haha heh some of you wanted this right..paiseh for taking so long..here it is..the poem from poc05.=)

Thankyou for
Being in our lives
The paths crossed so briefly
Yet we wont forget

Thankyou for being here
To show us what seniors are
People who care
People we can count on

You showed us friends
Are not just to have fun with
But much more, those
We braved through all together
Cried together
Laughed together.

You told us to reach for the stars
Where the dreams lie
To believe, to pray
Having the courage to achieve
Having the faith to give in all
Then taking failures as motivation
To try till we succeed

You inspired us
Like angels from above
Our world lighted with your warmth
With your enthusiasm

You are not a passing scenery
From the windows of our lives
Because
You leave footprints in my heart

ohmann my com's weird..like everything on screen will turn out checkered and all the colours are wrong so haha i have no idea wad colour i jus used..cos all i see is black and white and grey and blue and red hahah yeaheverything looks so weird!

MUSIC!
haha yeah anknowledgements to woo E-HUI who was nicee enough to help me upload.=)

poc2005

after tomorrow, everything will change .just like last year. for the better or the worse?
ncos wont be there anymore.
sec3s will take overas ncos.
WE will become sec3s.
sec1s will become sec2s.

its scary larh..poc04 seems like jus last week kind of thing..how did time mangage to fly so fast without my noticing it? will next year pass as fast too? then the next then whooosh we're out of redcross..abit the early larh but hmphh time flies. its scary..its scary when things changes just whe you think you can cope with it..then it just keeps on changing and changing and changing. but i wanna cling on to those times..those times last year which are longlong gone. can i freeze time? it'llbe cool.it'll be the best machine on planet earth!

hahaha so cool now my blog is like so abandoned by me larh but haha okaee now im gonna make it even deader. i, teo mun ching hereby announce that im going to abandon my blogg until like december hols? so yes no need to drop by here anymore heh if you srill happen to cos i dun think anything will still appear here for the time being..unless eh i ve got smthg to share and haha cant resist the urge to come here. haha got kind of freaked out by wad msheng said about bloggs like wad you write here can actually get you to court and stuff and that tchrs actually go to bloggs to read. like whoaa for a moment i was like eh hahah dunno alrh but i always thought that blogs are somewhere for ppl to spill out their emotions and stuff dintt hink that there'll be so many implications. haha and that day which msheng had i talk with us i wanted to go home and blog about a tchr then aft she said that i was like better not.

was watching the charity show jus now..when they showed images of those two kids down with cancer my heart totally jus dropped. its super unfair. hey like they re only children..one only in P1.. they dint even do anything wrong..wad did they do to deserve this? why is it that some ppl are given healthy bodies and really the best environment they can ever have and they nvr treasure it? aiyohh some even worse..cos of some reallyreally minor probs they end their lives. irony..hah i like talking about ironic stuff. if they dont want their lives give it to those kids larh..or better still before you die rite donate ure heart kidney liver whatever so that at the very least your death got meaning. see them struggling for their lives..their own future dimming and their dreams turning into nthg in front of their own eyes..very poor thing leh. so yes morale of the story..if you see those images you'll def know what i mean..treasure life. live it to the fullest of the fullest until cannot be fuller anymore. life is like haha i noe! our redcross coke bottles! everyone has the same standardization stuff and its wad you put inside that matters. you can either fill it to the brim or life it empty. actually this example not very good larh cos eveyrone has to fill it to the brim. but yarh if you have it, why not make full use of it? if you are so blessed, why not rejoice and treasure it? and life will be more fun that way too! its not what you have in life that matters its wad you see in life. if you think it it, it is. yes i suddenly feel veryveyr happy aft makin this statement haha i feel like jumpin round the hse but heh cannot larh cos my mum will think ive gone bonkers and the nxt thing i noe i ll be in woodbridge!

hah cool eh msheng say can write about birds and flowers in bloggs but haah im writng about coke bottles! aiayhh bloggs are dangerous larh. like everybody can see wads written here. actually rite blog is my super censored version of my paper diary. in my paper diary eveyrthing is written in there yes like everyhting..all my happiest stuff and all the dearest ppl and all my embarrasing stuff as well. but here arh by the time i sign in go to the create i forget wad i want to say already..bahh. but its a nice place to share stuff! esp when im feeling very philosophical..eh correct sp? correct usage? haha anw then i can crap all my new-gotten logics and philosophies so that haha i can save those around me the pain of listening to all those. haa see im so nice so considerate to ure ears.

um poc on 8th aug. so near. now when i think about junecamp it seemed liek smthg which happened months ago..then when i think about last yrs poc it seemed to be jus yesterday. bahh sheesh sec3s lehh..veryvery old already. i still, in acertain way, feel like a sec1. or someone whos jus became sec2. it seems so impossible so far away..like hahahah we also can be sec3s arh? so weird. we re gonna become those ppl whom we used to look up to soo much. we re gonna be liek them..whnhy does it seemed so impossible? and so funny! it doesnt fit in! and wad will things be like aft they leave? and wad kind of sec3s will we become? veryscary.

gahh my paer diary jus finished. my last entry was really nice and so bursting with emotions. i think nxt time when i become an old grandmama im gonna become i really happiee one cos i got so much stuff from my childhood years to teen years to maybe afulthood to read. but aiayhh cannot find any nicee diaries! must be thick and green and a5 size and the lines must be thin enough to hold a lot alot of words on a page. gahh cannot find! got green one then not thick then got thick one then not green. haha ooh its cool larh like all along i bought all my daires without realisin that they are all green then it was only this year then i realised..quite impressed with myself. so now must keep up the green traidtion. haha.

okaee i think my fingers are really tired now. so is my brain. officially brain-dead. haha written my fill..to last me for 3 months until the nxt time i come again. hahah -yawns- seeyou! byeeee. =)

CHINA ROCKS CHINA ROCKS CHINA ROCKS! hahah ohman you noe wad, nxt time when i grow up and earn a lot lot of money im goin to move to qingdao in china and buy a nice cosy apartment there and stay there. haha yes thats how much china rocks. okae maybe except the food..eh at first it was quite okae but aft like erms 9 days developed this phoebia for china food. but the food at qingdao is hte best..had so much seafood..shanghai is not bad too..most of the time we went to like high-class restaurants and get served quite well there. ohoh theres this very amusing restaurant in shanghai where the waitress were all on blades..damn cool hahahha..really shld have seen them ..everytime we want to go to the toilet we have to like look left look right before we walk. eh how did i went to the food part..okaee nemind i think the ppl at my eating table are veryvery amusing..all our amusing conversations hahah everyone will laugh while eating..its a verygood thing cos when you laugh you take up energy and when that happens yo0u can eat more! my grp ppl are super nice too..very spastic and funny. sometimes at night we'll gather in nicoles room then watch hahah chinese serials then ppl will see some guy then they will start hitting the pillow and do funny stuff hahah. the school we went to for the immersion programme..well the ppl there are really nice you noe they made this BANNER for us then the principal and vice-principal came over to welcome us and on the way up to the room then lined up on both sides and started claapin for us as we walked pass them..felt like some sort of vip alien from mars. haha everywhere we go there are the students staring at us..and the guys there are weird! like veryvery weird. hahahaha. laoshi was very nice..though our grp is like always late and always the most unprepared one shes always so amazingly patient..she l;ook so fierce but acutally shes really really mild! haha everytime also tuosiao. haha so many things happened..so many happy memories..aiayhh dun wanna type it all out here..yawns. eh lets do it again! CHINA ROCKS CHINA ROCKS CHINA ROCKS!

actually that post below was writen jus now..i jus changed the date..so smart rites heh. hahahah cant believe im GOING TO CHINA TOMORROW! so cool rites. like SIA plane lehh..super high-class and somemore midnigt flight..like whoaa! and arh..its ninedays..super fun. anmd got buddy at the immersion sch as well..hahah I LOVE CHINA! and im super proud of myself..i finished packing! all the china stuff..all by myself! for all nine days. anyway can you believe it..24 huors later i ll be in the airport..and aft that i be in CHINA! hahah oh gosh..hahahah.
CHINA.CHINA.CHINA.CHINA.CHINA!

haha to all you ppl who made todae such a happiiee day..THANKYOU! =)
so glad to have frens like you all. *loads and loads of huggs!*

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream

" it doesnt matter how many times you have fallen but rather, how many times you have risen. nothing has ended till the moment you quit..defeat is not the end, quiting is."

" sometimes when you feel lost and that no one understands you, talk to ur angels. believe in angels."

" sometimes all it takes is a hugg..nthg else."

todae's a nicee day! haha in love with the rain. was on the way home on the bus 'bout evening time the rain jus stopped and haha the scenery was like whoaa. everyhting 's got this tingue of freshness in it..reminds me..read somewhere that the world aft a rain is jus like a piece of clothing fresh from the laundry. hahahah. gotreally inspired by the rain haha dunno inspired for what but yarh its like got inspiration but dunno inspiration for wad.

and oh ndp! aiyahh hq drag a lot leh bahh we left lessons at 10am to have time to eat and change..left sch at 11 cos need to reach by 1130. heh you noe its the first time we're actually on time! waited until 1230 the bus came..got to neesoon camp and waited till 2pm the we started! gahh then we fall in waited while all the funny ppl fired in sediya haha almost fell asleep in squad then everytime the man say a command i wake up again. so tiring. and they stuffed us with so much food! gahh i wana complain for too much food..they gave us 3 bread biscuits and chips and ask us to finish then mus drink water also hahah was bloated by the time we finished. haha so funny u noe we had a bread parade..we held the bread up then was like yamseeeennnnggg! all the army guys were staring at us mus be thinking why we so weird one. had to sing this song when marching in haha when hte song played then we started marching i felt so patriotic! like wahaha im a singaporean! and redcrosser!heh. aft the whole thing on the way back we had to self-intro. the funnyfunny sir the one name start with a one he kept reminding me of the asthma and the mum and dad thing..so malu.

feeling very philosophical today.cos of the rain! haha and i feel as htough my life's remote control and been given back to me! everyhtings still blur and funny but yarh at least im feeling haha in control? haha

its upside down. my life had jus done a somersault without me knowing. i'll get it the right way up agian. nothings hard..its jus simply getting back on my feet. um how hard can that get?

theres something wrong..definately.

why isit that i can feel so high one moment then the next moment something happen the whoosh everything goes downhill.
why do i not react the same way which i used to when stuff happen to me.
why does there always seem to be this burden hanging there when everyhting is supposedly alrite on the surface.
why do i feel so unsure of myself.
why do i have no control over what i want to do and what i should do.

gosh so frightening. is this jus a phrase or what? will i be like this? why is this happening?

i hate the way things are now. a change. immediately.

why is everything so not right. wads wrong?

hahah opps im here again. aiyahh aft redcross went home soo tired was sleeping like a pigg from 8+ to 12+ then now i wake up my eyes bigbig like goldfish hahaha how to sleep? nemind so decided to come here to make a full use of my time and liven up mye blogg! not like it'll really help but hah oh wells.

my moods like rollar-coaster like that go upupup then go downdowndown..super freaky haha even freaking myself out now. like todae! for some reasons during the knot-tying thing our knots ended up so weird like here twist there twist we were laughing like nuts then our whole row tried to join up oour sticks into one longlong one..super cool. the instructor came also then he was like you laugh so much later aiyahh he said smthg then he started laughing too. aft the meeting the four of us got ultra eh 'high'? 3 of us did our long-lost malay dance then we ran around the sch like here was when we ordered food during talentime here was when we see our reflections here we practised haiyahh alll those really funky memories..missed them! oh and our aeroplane dance! haha we were flying to the amphi then we flew around the amphi the we flew back to the gallery. hahahha. offical lame day.

at the start we were reporting late then the sir say syl and i dunno wad duty thingg.. so funny larh we were in diam! actually not really in diam cos the sir kept repeating duty duty then syl and i were vibrating.

on our way out of the sch somehow got caught in a very complicated conversation about who is whos fake angel. bahh half the time i dint understand wad was going on larh hahah smthg very funny about wad fake angel one then fake angel two and angie mm's fake angels the postcard thing. oh but i do understand about the part mye handwrting like hamster! heh sounds like an insult to me lehh but erm hamster cannot write then how can my handwritting look like hamster's if hamsters cant write? i noe! i need a handwrting makeover!

todae was erm very funny!

nice ending to it all =). who says its impossible to turn things around?

haha oh no im not supposed to be here..but erm im in sch now and there's the temptations there..hahah read so many ppl's blogg bout the fri incident okae and like reallyreally sad cos everything jus erm turned so different and ugly. aiyahh like i really hope that wad she say will happen wont happen..like its really does its gonna hurt all of us and everythings gonna be different without you..disappoint everybody too..esp yupp us syl sinsin. think carefully before making any decisions..dont run away, overcome it! or it'll jus be left hanging there forever and be so awkward. so consider again and again! dont make us cry again yar? jus cross over this and everything will be alrite again. talk to you so long alreadi still like got no effect..but yar..seriously..im sure we all understand how you feel now but overcome it okae! and make decisions base on wad you seriously want..dont cause you dont wanna face it.

seriously nvr thought things wld even be this way..can we jus put aside fri's incident and pretend its nvr happened? then everyone can laugh again! i hate things to be this way..its really horrible. im sure like a lot of us are still affected by it..okaeokae? like forget all about it! then we can all continue to be the way we all used to be..laughing together..all the really happy and funny and good times..dont letn it be overshadowed by alll these.

why isnt anything the way i hoped for them to be? im sick and tired of all the lousy results..of all the diappointments and all the slackness i've given myself credit for. and that guilty super lousy feeling. no i wont carry on this way..i cant i wont and i reallyreally cant. everytime when its like tchrs say giving out wadeva paper its like hopin and hoping some miracle will happen and i ll jus somehow do well? yarh how dumb..like how many times can miracles happen? and even when i do study..its still like lousy. veryvery lousy. the every tues two test thing is a badbad lousy idea..but why can everyone cope but me? why's everything so low...almost the bottom of the class? everytime get back paper and start asking around find that less then five ppl get lower then me? damn scary. what can i do? and can i do it?

from tomorrow onwards, i will stop going online and stop all the blogging stuff. cut everything down. no msn no blogging no blogsurfing and all those funnyfunny stuff that i entertain myself with. all the way until 15th may. and by the end of all these everything will become better. seeya then. 4 whole weeks. can i do it?

liqin: hahah so corny..check up check down check check..check up check down check turn check bang hahah ohman i memorised it!!! ohoh and wads the timing for the cheese thing?

fellowlido: haha welcome back! so long dint see you here already. =)

charl: hellos! eh which charlene are you? : )

laughing

haha i got this from somewhere..its really 'got substance' one so i'll jus put it here.

'Did you ever bump your head - or break a wrist - while you were clowning around with friends? What did you notice?While you are LAUGHING, it is hard to feel PAIN!All kinds of wonderful things happen when you laugh …

1)Your lung capacity expands, improving respiration and oxygen consumption
2)Your immune system is activated - so you can better fight infection. Your body releases more of the protective T cells that fight virus and cancer cells
3)Endorphins - your body's natural painkillers - are released into your brain, decreasing stress.

Laughter not only reduces physical pain. It reduces mental pain!When we laugh, we naturally feel more hopeful and optimistic.When we laugh, we say to ourselves - and to the world - "I REFUSE TO SUFFER!"Laughter helps us survive grief and disappointment.There's a funny side to almost every situation. We just have to look for it.What else helps? When we stop trying to be perfect! Then we can laugh at ourselves - so we laugh a lot more often.

IN A NUTSHELL
Life is not that serious. We should take humour more seriously!'

-andrew mathews

hahah hopefully after this ppl can stop asking why i always laugh for nthg ..haha im jus trying to improve my immune system thingy..its a good thing k next time when got SARs again you'll find that everyone kana except me! =)

have you ever felt that you have everything you've wanted but that emptiness still seems to linger there? you dun noe wads wrong but smthg jus doesnt seemt o be in place? it feels weird and really depressing..like erm reallyreally weird feeling. confusing. like why isnt things as nice as they can be. and like why even when you really put in all your efforts but it still seems out of reach. why even when you reach where you wanna go that heavy feeling still wont go away? why always seems to be nothing noone nowhere when we seems to need them most? why putting in efforts is so tirng and so discouragin when reward are not there? why isnt there a place to go when you get so tired of life ans jus need a little really clean break off to be able to bounce basck again? gahh whys life so complicated and cheem and so mahfan.

anyways got back lots of results stuff this week. like i dunno how many but rmbred most of them were diappointments. oh and got back promos stuff too. plus that footdrill result days ago. promos were okae larh probably cos most of us dint do well then its easier to not feel so out can tong gan gong ku hahahha. hahah ohman footdrill arh very funny leh haha its not supposed to be funny but ohwells i was ultra jigh that day so it seems super funny. hahah have you seen ppl test can pass re-test must fail one? and fail nemind larh must fail like so funny mark somemore hahahahhah. ate so much chocs todae cos they gave so much chocs!!!! like whoaa huimin mm and sweegeok mm gave us loads of chocs then fd lesson we were like passing them all around sharing everyone ate so much! haha fun. eat until this bigbig pile of wrappers appear on the table. rck haha wad did we do? oh yarh we were eating also! ithink. then they did footdrill. then we talked so much. then the cheese thing..their lame invention hahahaah.

oh yayyy got my msn back! dunno how i did it also but i went to upgrade the whole thing to msn 7.0 then the whole thing pooooff came on!! hahah ultra super happy. =)

realised 'bout his whole week is the earliest i ve ever come home..whoaa on mon.was like hahaha so early! 0930 home already..then tues went home almost immediately then todae also almost immediately..heh im getting more guai hahahha. at home looks so different im the afternoon compared to school lehh. hahah. hahaha ohoh had pe todae and played volleyball again! hahah damn funny got one time we laugh until all 8 of us were lying on the floor laughing hahah cos nora did some weird stunt thing. our grp's the laughing one then got a scream,ing one then got one clapping one and got one the sport pple all there super pro grp. hahaha but its nice to play! though most of the time we dont even noe wads happening. pe's funn!! : )

hong said hes giving back papers tmr gahhh why must mark so fast. sheesh. okae hmm but nobody failed pheww but theres the borderline kind he also dint mention..ohwells blah

bahh now my msn not working..haha dunno wads wrong but there mus be smthg wrong must be must be cos my sis's one also cannot work then rahh so mah fun! now i feel so out..like so eh weird! the thing say my password not valid or smthg like that then my sis's one also hahahahah boo but how can two pple have invalid passowrd at the same time..must be the com. larh cos we use the same tootified com. but rahh you noe my fren said rite i said hi to her on msn last week but i dint!!! surely someone hack in one but vahhh who so boliao rites. hahahah

oh im alive and jumping and well now!! hahahah thankyou for the msg and stuff yarh? i can even run for the bus this morning! but the toot bus see i run so slow dun wait for me..evill. but still..hahaha. slept like a pigg on mon. morning after comming home from sch and drank 6cups of honey plus 3 spoonful!!!! hahaha then got super sick of sweet stuff had to balance with salty stuff. dunno wad i ate then i went back to yourgurts. the strawberry veryvery squshy!!

rck and footdrill promos tmr..hahaah im not supposed to be here blogging..ohwells hahahaha

thankyou..thankyou foreverything. for the angels you sent down to me whenever i seem to need them most. for pulling me up when im drowning. for all the care and concern you've showered me with. for all the frens you've blessed me with. for guiding me when i cant find my way.
i dunno who you are hahaha but thankyou still! =)

talked with yunhui jus now and yups it was really inspiring..felt so clear after talking to her and it was super good. told me so much stuff and gave so many really good and veryvery helpful advice..made me see myself so much clearer and now i think i sort of noe better what i'll do. thankyou for ending my day with such a wonder ful note..thankyou for bringing my moods up again cos todae was reallyreally lousy day..a big big rollar-coaster ride. freaky day so manymany things happened and got so freaked out.

promos was bad. everything was bad esp the first aid stuff..the bandage crisis and aiyah all the stuff study also cannot rmbr dint study then dunno. bahh. prac was so off dunno wad im doing feel so dumb rahh. and then the guilt there. do i even deserve it? the whole thing was so unfair..esp to them like yarh so unfair that it makes me feel gahh rahrah. then things happened one by one after that it like this extra burden there. and that thing got me pissed off.yes its amusement then it became concern then it turned into disgust. an endless cycle of concern and disgust concern and digust concern. feel so evil. so fake.

aiyah cant everything jus start all over again? then i will noe wad to do and maybe todae would be a totally diff. feeling?

hahahahahaah. lets all laugh together. hahahaha because somone said that laughing is good for health. but cannot laugh no niose cos will get cancer. hahahah. and it'll chase alway all the gloomness and everyone can be hppy again!

raining now..hmm rain's nicee. so nice and cool bahhh but that toot rain mus rain when we were jus aboutt o go home..then syl and i cldnt go home..had to stay in sch for like sososo long until the rain stop. have you ever realised that splashing in puddles is fun? it's s like splasssh then you see this fountain and then become wet wet already. suddenly feel like running out in the rain also cos it jus started raining again! then can s[plash splash everywhere. haha not to get sick but jus for the fun of it!

got back the science paper todae. damn lousy. lousylousylousy. seriously thought i would d o better cos i really studied for it and i cld like memorise almost the whole chapt. yupyup but suppose theres always 2 ways to react rites..like wad mrs chua said..can either give up and hate the subj or study harder and prove that i can do it. i wont give up. i wont give up. i wont i wont. i ll do better the next time round..sigh can i? some how it seems so impossible. like this paper's supposed to be super easy and im like doing doing that well for it? and hong said that the next one in like 2 weeks time will be much much harder the physics light and colour chapt. then he said that if i dont do well like border line kind will go into single sci class. nonono cannot!!! okae heres a promise to myself..for the next sci test i ll get a A1 grade and if i dont i'll delete my blog and msn and dont touch the com. except for seroius sch work for 1.5 months. i mean it..i mean it so i'll study really really hard.
study
study
study
science
science
science

its not really that hard is it? it'll be really okae and i can do it.

im sorry

bahh. im sorry. feeling the guilt now. hmx.
im sorry
im sorry
im sorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorry

i saw i RAINBOW..hahah yupps that same rainbow..its so cool.

haha okae this's to all of you out there whos depressed? yupp and my good fren too! you noe who you are yarh?..cheer up! and i saw i rainbow todae and it was like a lttle miracle sort of thing. its soo super nice. so morale of the story..after the rain there're be a rainbow. so no matter how tough things are..dun give up! cos if you do..you'll nvr see that little miracle that nature gave to us okae?
jus ended this phone call with yarh you noe who yo u are rite..made me think so much. hahah i understand how u r feeling but i dont understand why u r doing this to yourself. its like theres so much in life thats waiting for us ton learn to discover to know to experience to try..so many people you can meet so many stuff to do..dun waste time being depressed! its like wasting your time away..whyn dont you jus use that time to be happiee? to make your life more eh interesting? make memories..well dont wait for pple do things for yourself! like dont wait for pple to come along and make you happier..you make yourself happier..dont tie yourself to others..dont give ure life's remote control to them..no one can affect you with out ure permission. its your life. do wadeva you want with it. do anything to make it one worth living. haha yarh? i dunno if im making sense to you but yupps..think it through. =)

and rmbr..i saw i rainbow todae!

had the ndp marching trng cum selection thing todae. its quite okae i think..nono quite fun actually cos the sirs and ma'ams were so funny! got amused with everyone there. they were like super fast. there was this tiga-langah hadapan thing or wadeva it is larh anyway its the command for moving forward 3 steps. liqin and i were satu..then they alreadi bang. we were like whoaa. why they say so fast the tongue wont twist up one... soweird. then they say yes sir or yes ma'am its like yesir and yeman..cannot catch up! and and still got k ..the commander he talk got this weird weird super thick and muffled and low malay accent..hahah got 100% no idea wad hes talking about. liqin and i were like erm how then we jus copy the pple next to us or in front. then so malu they mus put me in front!! its like so obvious nthg he says can get processed onmy head. now cannot even copy. bahh. yaye i survived. cos they dint do the selection this time due to the rain. toot rain..it was fun being drench. i love raining days! the rainbows!

but in the morning syl and i got super pissed out. dunno at wad larh but we were very fusrtated and stuff cos i realised when i met syl that im supposed to ahve a coke bottle and then we called sinsin they say mus have name taggs too. then they called agin..mus have boots. syl and i were like wow how come like 15 mins before then we noe arh. somemore we were soo late. called erm her and asked her for like wad to do that kinda stuff. too despo larh cos both of us veryveryvery scared and irritated and like this mind ther blank. ohman she dint believe us! haha so unexpected then she started laughing too! omg syl and i were like huhh then we were laughing too. it sort of calm us down i guess..were told of wad to do if the ma'ams ask so we dint feel that bad? almost backed out..luckily she stopped us. okae the morning started out super badly..but i cruised through it! and i survived the day of tuitions and fast food and projs..hiphip horraay!

gloria: haha its alrite really..like erm it doesnt really matter if you've a fan club or what rite but yarh if you look at it as a preparation for next time when you get rich and famous..its realliee funniee! =)

fellowlido: u toot! i bet you cheated! haah heh.

2CURRYAGE WON THE CLASS SPIRIT COMPETITION.
we've got the HOT stuff. haha how true. we re like winnin almost every competition heh like chi talentimee and this class spirit thing. you noe like everytime we greet mrs bowness she ll be lke 2co rite?..hmm a very spirited class. hahaha and everytime she gives that espression i want to laugh already hahahahahhah.

yayee OM finished todae!! phew phew its off my mind now. our costume was damn spastic haha joey and i were like eh we look so retarded. i dunno if it turned out alrite but oh wells its okae. its supposed to be the laugh-a -thon thing and the teachers hardly laughed! but the 2 sy teams were super good. so funniee! was laughing throughoutnthe whole way. after finishing the thing waited for e-hui to go home with me and we did that stupid dance in front of the rc board cos we were rejoicing over going to china.

so tired aiyoh..im like dying now? had sci and geog test todae and got this nervous breakdown yesterdae..damn scary k the whole night started hopping around cannot get anything into my head so decided to sleep first then wake up again to study..slept from 12 until like 4:30 woke up and started cramming all those stuff inside my head. then the whole time i was like how if i fail my sci how if i dont do well that sort of thing..sheesh how i survived it. then realised that i was late for sch so rush rush and took a taxi to sch. oh man but the taxi driver was like scgs..the one at katong is it? hahahaha whoaa katong. malu larh..so tireed now..got om tmr. i think we ll do okae but its freaky like got so much stuff to sew and prac. but we ll be free after tmr so well thats erm good? look on the bright side!

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rachel: sheesh rachel, adventure camp wasnt nicee! it was a toot camp larh like so mah fun and stuff ewwww but march camp was much much nicer!

gloryPATH: hahah oh man how come you got fan club i dunno one arh and somemore my name can appear as one of your fans haha i got better taste okae. see now ive to go around telling everyone that i was after ure marshmellow not you! hahahhahah. oh that marshmellow was really nicee kae.

heyhey im proud of myself for doing my work nad not staying in that moody sadsad mood as i'd predicted myself to be after those 3days. completed my du huo gan, lit essay, camp reflective essay, learnt my 7&8 ke and..eh i think thats all hahha not very impressive but yayy at least i dint slack and stone and suffer from withdrawl syndroms.

redcrossmarchcamp2005

new tongue twister! haha try saying it 10 times and see if ure tongue will twist=) :

bravo rocks
bravo rocks
bravo rocks
bravo rocks
bravo rocks
bravo rocks
bravo rocks
bravo rocks
bravo rocks
bravo rocks

haha and cannot cheat.. mus go like brrrrravo rrrrrocks then can. yesyes? ure tongue twisted rite? see it proves that bravo really really rocks haha heh we got the nicest and the bestest people k the sec3 ncos juniors everybody! haha yayee my grp rocks. camp was fun!!

was happily blogsurfing away all the updated posts about camp came across this post about my grp the fruit thing hahahahaha i started laughing in front of my com its super funniee k hahahahahh. then my mom heard me had to purposely stop me from using the com when i was having such fun. tell you wad happened. the 1st day we went beach cleaning gloria found this pongpong fruit we were like lets copy delta and get a grp trademark too then all the way we were playing catch with it. after that tootified gloria was tootified enough to leave it in the grp backpack till the 3rd day got bag check. aiya and that poor fruit got conficasted in the squad my whole grp almost died laughing. then they found another fruit in deborah's bag.. a miniature version of gloria's one. haha hahahah.

march camp was fun! it was super fun with all the so many funniee weirdweird things that happened. and the 101 pumpings were cool so cool! i always thought that that i would nvr go past 50 then suddenly it balloned to 101 was like whoa are we really going to do all that? and we did it okae! yayee u noe what..we rock! the game that money thing was cool! and my grp dint cheat you know!!! at first we did a teeny weeny bit larh but after that we returned the corrupted money heh and did ten pumpings for vivian mm's hair and karen mm's watch. the juniors were so sporting we were telling them to chant go bravo go go go then they so guai and chanted along with us. hahahah our grp cheer. damn off larh but its still nicee! cos its bravo's cheer. =)

rock-climbing so funnie hahahahah. felt like tazan while swinging on the 4th wall but then later swing too many times cannot grip the rock thing already but that woman so nicee she was lke okae u borrow my rope to get to the rock. hahahah then i realised that everyone else who got on that wall swinged alot too so fun to watch pple swing. the 2nd wall was easier as in like the rocks got more grip and reached the top for that one!! rmbr got one time my hands my legs were all on green rocks! green is the nicest colour in the world so green rocks are the nicest rocks in the world too! the others down there were soo good! always telling me which rock to grip which rock to step on and yes it made a huge difference! cos i went up got super blur i rmbr thinking why the higher i go then become hothot one..then couldnt make up my mind on which rock i could take. hahahah yupp thankyou! =)

march camp is like so much fun-er than adventure camp hm those people who dint come arh..u all are weird! hahah now ive got the peanut song stuck in my head. haha eww but shall go to sch on mon. and play it again!

lost
lost
lost
im not lost..but its the tittle of my music and art proj.
anything related to 'lost'?
any music that can make pple feel 'lost'?

hahah syl sinsin n liqin n i we went out after the standardization meeting yesterdae. hah ooh we ended up entertaining ourselves with wacko with the sec1s in that meeting. they were nicee! and funniee too! oh man a sudden change of persceptive haha i changed opinion of them for like 4 times alreadi. wacko was fun..wonder wad happened to liqin's bottle. haha loads of laughers and other funny nioses that were caused by us larh..heh havent had fun in such a long time.

went out to novena sq for bubble haha u noe the bubble tea counter had a handwritting that looks like somones. then the bubble tea man also looked like that someones father k haha i bet u it is def her father. its soo cool! then if its her father i ll drop by every dae to buy bubble tea! xunbian also ask for dicounts or some free drinks!! haha mus find a time to ask her if not really her father then wasted leh.

were lookin at some byebye cards then we came up with that green sentence below. i think its super nice leh so meaningful! hahahhaahahahha

..the salt of scrcy. salt dissolves in water, they wont be there forever.

had the subjs. combination talk todae. most interesting assembly i've had in a long long time. haha.
after the whole talk i came into these conclusions:

1) triple sci +full lit pple are the super smart and the analysing kind of people. cos history and lit needs super lot of thinking and inferring stuff and triple sciences needs brain power. all brainy pple.

2)triple sci +geog pple are the people with great memorizing skills and a whole lot of grey lump between their ears plus a lot of discipline and good time management. cos geog needs to orfanise a whole lot of werid info and bio too..somemore triple sci..eat up so much time. my admiration to all. haha

3) bio chem + geog pple are hmm pple who memorises and digests info very fast! like bio got whole lot of info..and geog got even more..so also my admiration to all these pple with super big appetite for info.!

4) bio chem+ lit. hmm weird pple. doesnt make sense! hahah as inlike bio is the info kind then take lit the inferring kind..hahah but if i dont get into triple sci i'll probably take this too. =)

5) physics chem + geog. the ultimate info pple! the engineering kind..like those kind who will earn super load of money cos they're so interested in the environment and everybody wants them to work.

6) physics chem+ full lit are erm i dunno! haha any way i try to come to a conclusion it doesnt seem to be a reasonable conclusion..heh so i give up on this one.anyone noes? tell me! then i can complete my whole set of conclusions!

hahaah its crappy..but if u really think deep enough u'll appreciate the intelligence i have to make conclusions whcih makes so much sense. haha its smart conclusions from a smart person!

cant believe im actually committing to it. so dumb..why did i even agree to it in the first place? um super freaked out now. tomorrow. 16 more hours. how? how? i'll jus screww up everything..i wont be able to make it. im damn scared k.

adventure camp

finished the camp todae! huge achievements! esp that part 'bout not bathing haha eeeks it was disgusting and sticky and sweaty but yayy its still an achievement k. oh man people bathed 2 times throughout this whole camp thing then i was like i dint bathe! the first time cos the campsite the toilet drains were connected then i dint dare to bathe cos if i do then hahahah you all now y larh. then the dragon boat thing the queque was sooo long aiyah dint want to wait so jus washed at the tap and clean up.

urban challenge was nicee! walking around singapore. cool k. but it was reallyy tiring almost died on and we sprinted all the way back!! haha and i was the last one in the grp to come back. heh. everyone got so much more enthu on the second day..it was nicee! =)

but camp really deprieve me of food. you noe most of the time throughout the camp my stomach was growling. somemore can here weird weird sound comming out..it was funny to hear! like some k9ind of the stomach burbing sound. and the food was not nice. was so tired jus now on the bus i fell asleep and misseed my stop. walked all the way back in my wet shoes. eww.

wonder how will obs be. sounds fun.

jus came back from adventure learning camp! hahahah oh gosh its not reallyy nice cos the tootified rain wont go away. were like going to do abselling then it suddenly went like whoooosh then wet wet already. waited awhile before contiuning..iayh wasted a lot of time larh..dint do the rock-climbing flying fox and the general station thing. having the island hunt or smthg like that tmr..oh yarh must thank gloriaapufff for her backpack or else i wont noe wad to do larh. did a lot of cheers they were cool!

staying overnite tmr..im scared k. oh no got so much stuff on tmr..so mus sleep early todae! haha sleeping now..niteess!

i like the ending of pi li huo! oh my its the nicest ending i ve ever seen in a show! yayyye biyu is back! that 100% biyu..shes damn sweet haha. the ending is nicee..but the ending scene not nice leh..like suddenly jus stop like that. hmph now im like got no more tv temptation alreadi..all the shows on tv not very nice to watch..i think that shanghai thing shld b quite nice but aiyah tediuos to watch larh..have to connect everything then can understand.

IM GOING TO CHINA!!!!!!!
IM GOING TO CHINA!!!!!!
IM GOING TO CHINA!!!!!
IM GOING TO CHINA!!!!
IM GOING TO CHINA!!!
IM GOING TO CHINA!!
IM GOING TO CHINA!

china is cool okae. heeyaye.

haha yayy our first meeting with the juniors today. they're amusing. haha i changed my mind..they're not scary anymore..they're amusing! haha the way they fill the coke bottle very funny leh..a lot of them fill until like the normal coke level then i told them 'bout the turn over air bubble thing they were like huh wads that. some like their bottles so much they cling on to it everywhere they go..looked so cute. but they were good, i suppose. when they asked for volunteers from sec1s five pple jus very fast stood up and go..syl and i were like whoa..haha

gloria: glorypuff? haha nooo glorypath sounds cooler..like when soldiers die then they're sent on a glory path like that. haha glorypuff reminds me of currypuff and chickenpuff hmm yum!

syl: haha hello syl! haha yarh was excited to see them..turned out they're actually quite good rite..but ibet we were better than them! haha i also bet u u couldnt sleep last night cos u were too excited rite?

elissa: haha elissa urs is sweeter..pinkpink one..mine's plain larh. oh u owe me a letter rite? or is it my turn? =)

alicea: wonderful? okae..haha weird..havent seen urs..would drop by soon yarh?

fellowlido: hmph shld be honoured that i got bullied by you? no..im not! who would get honoured..haha let me give u the same example again..if a burglargoes into ur hse and still very thing that's in there..would u get excited that of all the houses..he chose to rob urs? heh if u say yess means ure a weirdo fellowlido!

had steamboat again just now. haha it was erm. was like 34degrees then plus all the heat from the steamboat and the food i was melting! nvr see people eat steamboat when its so hot befor. was complaining to my mum then she wenrt like ooh 34degrees outside? huh i thought u like 34 degrees..meaning the clothes shop thing haha lame larh

haha tootified gacetangmeiting. cannot connect her with blog-readers leh.haha u noe u're not allowed to go blogging in sch..not sure'bout reading bloggs but oh well i think also cannot cos it doesnt make sense if u cannot blog but can read blogs.

my LAST baby tooth comming off! haha yayy after it comes off im going nuts with joy. weird .haha but still got so like 3 teeth haven grow yet kae. hurry grow! the i can chew more and eat more! =)

haha thet most exciting episode of pi li huo showing now! and xing sulan's gonna kill fang yushan. oh man..i hope she wont kill her..dumbified xing sulan make biyu's face until so ugly..haha..haha oh no..gosh..dont kill her!

heyy u noe smthg..i love my OM grp! so i love OM too! haha its fun k..might be a teeny weeny bit mah fun but i still think its fun! haha love ya pple =)

lost now.

next time when i grow up im gonna invent a machine which can actually bring pple back in time. wont it be nicee? like some moments in ure life some stages some events some periods you really love it and treasure it as a memory you can actually go back to it again whenever u like. isnt it cool?

memories. no matter how much they matter to you there still be some missing jig-saw pieces when u try to recall it some time later. isnt it a pity?

oh no..i really want to do back now. to that time where the sweetest memories lie.

orientation

came back from orientation. it feels weird..i dunno..like something missing like that. but some of the games are fun! the one at bus bay! yaye my favourite..its like that game on tv where pple like try to invade each other's territory then got bomb to throw and places to hid behind some obstacles. that was nicee..cos my grp won!

the sec1s are damn scary u noe. they're like so mature..not really mature that kind of mature but u noe like that kind of dao-ing kind. and they stone a lot too! are they normal? hmm. they aiyoh i dunno how to say larh but was wondering if did we seem like this last year..ooh i noe that we were exactly like the sec1s when we were sec1s last year when we went 'yes ma'am' last year..so soft and sweet..haha super cute leh. i think my grp pple are quite nice..that someone oh no i forgot her name okaes anywae its tt malay girl shes so quiet. crystal talked quite a lot..

HAPPIEE VALENTINE'S DAY

food phoebia..oh no. ate steamboat on cny's eve, the first second and fouth day. plus all those goodies haha im feeling so out. last time when i saw food i would be like yumyum but now im like oh no eeeks that sort of thing. but u noe..its actually fun to dont like to eat..nvr hated food before. everytime i see food my eyes will light up so now maybe a chancge will be good? hmm. wheee. i dont think this unusual feeling will last for very long. its more fun to eat larh. really. live to eat, eat to live. =)

okae im at my dad's sister's hse..making use of their broadband to blog. haha and i finally got into friendster to accept all those request..yaye! smthg done at last.. ((: my dad's like watching tv and im stoning here

my juniors! those cute little bouncy people! haha okae they werent really bouncy but they looked so innocent and stuff that they just seemed so bounce-able. oh man they are just so lucky..they've got a whole year to slack and have fun..not forgetting to discover the true sc spirit and the redcross spirit! lucky piggs. hmm was like so excited..weaving in and out of them asking them stuff. but later we decided that we were kinda extra-ed there so we kindly left they alone.

haha wonder if the sec 3s were like this too when we came in. and did we seemed that lovable? haha eeeks. i asked huizyi and she was so mean she went like nonono but i sure they were excited larh..like who wont be when you can finally become a senior. oh cool im a SENIOR! from now onwards i shall be on my best behavior and not embarrass myself in front of them. you noe someone who's in sec one now jus told me that all along she thought i was the same age as her. surely im more matured then them rites?

on an emotional rollar-coster ride todae. first i had to not be able to print out my lit essay thing then i promised her that i'll put it in her pigeon hole after school. but my floppy cannot open at all cos i kept playing with it then according to syl i lost the info.

after that got back the sci paper. almost died. i knew i would do badly but dint expect to do that badly as to be right at the bottom of the class. stunned. the valency thing i completely dont understand. like the cross over thing wad ions then dunno wad u put negative here then become positve all those.

im drowning. help. someone.

diaryland is so hard to use! was attempting it for the pass few days but their template thing is still a question mark..sigh i suppose i'll go back to blogspot..it's much much simpler but it like dont have any privacy at all. unlike diaryland which actually allows you to lock. hmm wonder how people can actually use diaryland..must be really intellectual people. anywaes shall tranfer all my post from the diaryland one to here:

mon:
mrs bowness is nice! so sweet :))
todae in class we were waiting for the ww2 show then she suddenly went like wheres the redcross girls? heard that you all were very depressed after the compettition on sat. then we had to tell her the whole story about the close margin, the dance and the drama. that what was most embarrasing was that i was sitting on the table right behind when she asked that so all the while she was looking at me? almost broke down again when telling her bout the 3 year challenge shield thing. but mrs bowness was so super nice! she told us..erm i cant rmbr wad she told us but it was smthg to comfort us larh. so sweet! ooh 2CO is sweet too..they were clapping for us..eh claps of encouragement? thankyou guys! and thankyou yunhui too..for being the first person outside redcross i told the results to and for all your encouragements for next year's.

tues:
todae was bad. actually spacing out during tests? oh no science..i dont want the paper back.

thurs:
coughing like a cow. hey it sounds good! coughing like a cow..haha. now my stomach is painful. but its a good thing you know..it means that i've been using my stomach muscles and that in turn means that i now have stronger stomach muscles which also means that i will be able to go the leg-riasers for a longer time which is good!

we lost.

so ineffecient now. so slack and stuff..jus promised myself to spend only 30 mins online then go and study for that tootified history and maths test tmr but noww im like onine for 1+ hour readi..display of lack of willpower. ugh. aiya nvm shall do it after im done with this. my erm 'new' year resolutions. haha yaye..introducing..=)

1) stop procastinating and PRIORITISE! that's the most impt. definately. which means that in the future i must stop doing stuff which are obviously relatively un-impt and focus on stuff which are a whole lot more impt..like sch work! eeeeks. it's okae..i will do it no matter.

2)do well enough to get into TRIPLE SCIENCE. this's super impt too. means that i shall be super nerdy this year and study study study alot alot.

3) FINISH MY HOMEWORK the night before instead of copying from my partner when i go to sch the next dayy like what i did last year..not like my dear partner is very smart or wad but most of the time she dont do her work too. but this year's different. ive got i nicee partner-grins- so i wont bully her amd copy her hw instead i will do them myself and make sure i actually benefitted from doing them.

4) be who i am . i will stop trying to live up to pple's expectations and jus be myself. i will do what i think is right instead of what others think is right..yesyes? haha yarh then i can stop putting so much pressure on myself and enjoy my life more! haha yaye what a perfect idea..i thinkk im getting smarter! hehs.

5) i will PUT IN 100% EFFORT and my veryvery best in whatever i do. that way i'll enjoy what i do more! haha another smart idea..haha im realli getting genius-ed! okaes..a quote here 'u put in your best effort not to please others but becos that's the only way to enjoy ure work' haha wads the point of doing it when u dont wanna do it and the onky 50% of ure effort is there. i'll either do it to the best i can or not do at all! hahas.

6) manage my time well. basically this's quite similar to the first and third one..in fact i thinkk it'sa combination of both. so not much to be said but it's veryvery impt too!

7) lastly to KEEP UP ALL THESE RESOLUTIONS! haha or it'll totally defeat the purpose of even having them. i will watch less tv and pay attention to my homework..which is not smthg very interesting but at least it'll help me achieve my goals rite? : )

HATE THE LIFE IM LEADING NOW. ITS LIKE SO TOTALLY MEANINGLESS AND IM JUS T LIKE LIVING ON FOR THE SAKE OF LIVING. THAT IM NOT LIVING FOR MYSELF BUT FOR OTHERS. I FEEL SO DUMB. I WANNA COMMIT TO THINGS THAT I LOVE AND FIND MEANINGFUL. PLACES THAT I WANNA GO AND LIVE IN I CANT THINGS THAT I WANNA DO STUFF THAT I WANNA LEARN IMPACTS THAT I WANNA MAKE I JUS CANT . WAIT UNTIL IM LIKE INDEPENDENT? THERE'S LIKE SOO MANY THINGS OUT THERE THAT I WANNA SEE I WANNA HEAR I WANNA EAT I WANNA VISIT TO EXPLORE. SO MANY PLACES I WANNA LIVE IN. SO MANY THINGS I WANNA DO . IT'S MY LIFE! WHY AM I MADE TO DO THINGS THAT I'VE NVR HAD INTEREST IN OR DO SOME STUFF THAT I FIND TOTALLY MEANINGLESS? LIKE STUDYING MATHS..WHEN WILL I ACTUALLY GET TO CALCULATE ANLGES FROM X TO Y. YES ITS KNOWLEDGE BUT WADS THE USE OF THIS KINDA KNOWLEDGE WHEN ITS JUST GONNA GET FORGOTTEN SOMEWHERE 10 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD? WHY WASTE TIME DOING ALL THESE WHEN I CAN ACTUALLY USE ALL THESE TIME TO MAKE AN IMPACT ON OTHERS AND BRIGHTEN UP THEIR LIVES? OKAE MAYBE I SHLD JUS STOP WHINNING. I THINK U SHOULD JUS STOP READING THIS POST..IT;LL ONLY SCREW UP URE MIND..LIKE WHAT IM DOING TO MINE. BUT I WANNA HAVE A DIFFERENT KIND OF LIFE..SOMETHING MORE EXCITING MORE ADVENTUROUS MORE MEANINGFUL. I WANNA LEAD THAT KIND OF LIIFE THAT I TRULY WANNA LEAD..SOMETHING THAT MAYBE 50 YEARS LATER WHEN IM DYING I CAN SAY THAT I HAVE DONE ENOUGH AND MY LIFE IS REALLI MEANINGFUL THEN I CA LEAVE WITHOUT REGRETS. I WANNA VENTURE DOWN A PATH THAT FEW HAD VENTURED ON BEFORE..A ROUTE THAT WILL BRING ME STRESS FEAR YET WARMTH EXCITEMENT FRIENDSHIPS HAPPINESS SOMETHING THAT I CAN TELL MYSELF..YES, THIS 'S IS WHAT IM BORN TO DO. I DONT WANNA BE RESTRICTED BE CAGED DOWN ..I WANNA BE SUPPORTED BE LOVED. WHY DO SOME PEOPLE CAN JUS LIKE NOT LOVE IT NOT PUT THEIR EFFORT IT IN YET THEY CAN EXCEL IN THEM?

OKAES..I SHALL STOP COMPLAINING. I SHALL STOP THINKING OF COMPLAINING AND WHINNING WHEN SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE IN THE OTHER PARTS OF THE WORLD WILL DIE TO LEAD SUCH A LIFE LIKE MINE. WHEN SOME OTHER PEOPLE ARE BEGGING ON THE STREETS AND THEY HAVE NO FOOD NO DRINKS NO SHELTER NO LOVED ONES. OH WELLS..AT THE VERY LEAST I HAVE ALL OF THE STUFF ABOVE RITES? MAYBE IM NOT DOING THAT BADLY.

WHEN A PERSON IS MADE TO DO SOMETHING SHE DOESNT LIKE TO DO, HER DETERMINATION, PERSERVERENCE, BONDS WITH OTHERS AND BLAHBLAH ARE PUT TO TEST. MAYBE ITS REALLI NOT THAT BAD. FROM TODAE ONWARDS I SHALL STOP COMPLAINING OF WHY THINGS HAPPEN IN MY LIFE AND BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE AND WHAT I'VE RECIEVED FROM OTHERS. KNOW THAT THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE IN A MUCHMUCH WORSE STATEE THAN U BUT YET THEY ARE LIVING ON WITH PRIDE. EMBARK ON EACH NEW DAY WITH HOPE INSTEAD OF FEAR. I SHALL REMEMBER THAT WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE IS NOBODY'S DOINGS EXCEPT MINE..I MAKE WHAT HAPPEN IN MY LIFE..NOT OTHERS. I SHALL BE PROACTIVE AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY IN MY LIFE..ONLY I CAN CHOOSE WHAT I WANNA DO. I SHALL STOP TRYING TO LIVE UP TO PPLE'S EXPECTATIONS AND DOING WHAT I SHOULD DO..INSTEAD I WILL DO WHAT I THINK I WANT I FEEL IS THE WRITE THING AND WHAT I WANT TO DO. I WILL BE A FIRST RATE VERSION OF MYSELF, INSTEAD OF A SECOND RATE VERSION OF EVERYONE ELSE..I WANT BE ME, JUST PLAIN ME. I WILL NEVER CHICKENED OUT COS OF FEAR BUT VENTURE IT ALL THE WAY WITH CONFIDENCE. I SHALL START OUT EACH DAY WITH A RENEWED CONFIDENCE. I SHALL LIVE EACH DAY TO THE FULLEST THAT I CAN.

YES, THAT 'S A PROMISE TO MYSELF. I CAN DO THAT. YES, I CAN.

prefects' invest

went to prefects' invest todae. it was super cool and super nice and super funniee. love it loads..hahaha i think they realli put in loads of effort into it..can tell. like the music the props the transfer from scene to scene and script the acting was veryvery good. :))
realli enjoyed it except for the fact that i was sneezing throughout the whole show. haha-bleah- soo embarrassing..was trying to not sneeze but cannot cos its too ticklish then tried to sneeze softer but i came out as a super loud ahhhchooo. for the whole day i became the red nose reindeer and it's realli painful kae..sneezed like over 20 times then every time i sneeze need to use the nose muscle[is there one?] and the lung and the stomach muscle plus somemore my nose will expand in breathe haha. oh and not fogetting those trees which sarcrificed their lives so that i can sneeze in comfort in the tissues which amounted to this mountain on my desk. eeeks. haha

yaye :))

haha yaye i finally got a new skin! dint realli like the previous one..too blue-ish and kinda shallow larh..but hope this's nicer? im not that sort who would go and up-date every day so im sure it's gonna stay stagnant for a few more weeks before i update again opps paiseh but can help being so lazy rites? haha

ooh u noe i found out smthg=) that Jean Henri Dunant person won the first nobel prize!! haha okaes maybe it was mentioned during lessons before but i dint hear it so i think it wasnt or maybe it was but i think it wasnt larh so yah. wonder how did he react. he must be grinning from ear to ear..but then again he looks like those kind of i-wont-grin person so maybe he jus had no reaction..hmm

fri todae. such a dread. haha rotting away at home..spent like 6hs online? haha whoa that's a new record! cool=) reading some books then decided that i've no idea what im reading about.
i need something to do! something to add some spice to my life to make it more meaningful and pephaps more stressful? i dont like the way im leading my life now. erm i noe it's like so shallow and silly to say that when so many people lost their lives and their loved ones in the tsunami and will give anything to lead the live im leading now.

sigh.

talentime auditions's results are out.
our malay dance dint get through. haha i dont noe. i realli dont noe. i dont noe why, i dont noe wad to actually say and i jus dont noe larh. was like totally cannot concentrate in class todae..keep spacing out and i dont think i even heard a word that the teachers said except for maths maybe.
but oh wells at least we tried rites? and it is all that realli matters.
ooh and for all the people who was so amused by our talentime..erms yarh our ncos drama and lvl dance and mass dance got through the auds..haha yaye!

school

haha wanted to abandon this blog until the june hols but just cant resist the temptation of going online again. school dint turn out as badly as i thought i would be. it's actually realli fun..my classmates are like so so so much nicer than i thought. and u noe wad, 2 Courage has the class spirit ooh yes we're definately going to be a class worth remembering..haha oh wells.
so it's like now every time before a teacher goes off we're supposed to go like have a nice day. now they're like so impressed and like so happiee and stuff but after a while they'll get sick of it.
ding dong is much better as a form teacher than a teaching teacher. shes like so crappy and long-winded..luckily she only comes in in the morning or else i would have died..but u noe..besides her appearence her long-windedness her lameness shes realli not that bad..haha oh is she?

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oh gosh that's so fast. school's starting tomorrow...and im not ready..definately not. gosh gosh gosh..why so fast?