we lost.
Monday, January 24, 2005
so ineffecient now. so slack and stuff..jus promised myself to spend only 30 mins online then go and study for that tootified history and maths test tmr but noww im like onine for 1+ hour readi..display of lack of willpower. ugh. aiya nvm shall do it after im done with this. my erm 'new' year resolutions. haha yaye..introducing..=)
1) stop procastinating and PRIORITISE! that's the most impt. definately. which means that in the future i must stop doing stuff which are obviously relatively un-impt and focus on stuff which are a whole lot more impt..like sch work! eeeeks. it's okae..i will do it no matter.
2)do well enough to get into TRIPLE SCIENCE. this's super impt too. means that i shall be super nerdy this year and study study study alot alot.
3) FINISH MY HOMEWORK the night before instead of copying from my partner when i go to sch the next dayy like what i did last year..not like my dear partner is very smart or wad but most of the time she dont do her work too. but this year's different. ive got i nicee partner-grins- so i wont bully her amd copy her hw instead i will do them myself and make sure i actually benefitted from doing them.
4) be who i am . i will stop trying to live up to pple's expectations and jus be myself. i will do what i think is right instead of what others think is right..yesyes? haha yarh then i can stop putting so much pressure on myself and enjoy my life more! haha yaye what a perfect idea..i thinkk im getting smarter! hehs.
5) i will PUT IN 100% EFFORT and my veryvery best in whatever i do. that way i'll enjoy what i do more! haha another smart idea..haha im realli getting genius-ed! okaes..a quote here 'u put in your best effort not to please others but becos that's the only way to enjoy ure work' haha wads the point of doing it when u dont wanna do it and the onky 50% of ure effort is there. i'll either do it to the best i can or not do at all! hahas.
6) manage my time well. basically this's quite similar to the first and third one..in fact i thinkk it'sa combination of both. so not much to be said but it's veryvery impt too!
7) lastly to KEEP UP ALL THESE RESOLUTIONS! haha or it'll totally defeat the purpose of even having them. i will watch less tv and pay attention to my homework..which is not smthg very interesting but at least it'll help me achieve my goals rite? : )
1) stop procastinating and PRIORITISE! that's the most impt. definately. which means that in the future i must stop doing stuff which are obviously relatively un-impt and focus on stuff which are a whole lot more impt..like sch work! eeeeks. it's okae..i will do it no matter.
2)do well enough to get into TRIPLE SCIENCE. this's super impt too. means that i shall be super nerdy this year and study study study alot alot.
3) FINISH MY HOMEWORK the night before instead of copying from my partner when i go to sch the next dayy like what i did last year..not like my dear partner is very smart or wad but most of the time she dont do her work too. but this year's different. ive got i nicee partner-grins- so i wont bully her amd copy her hw instead i will do them myself and make sure i actually benefitted from doing them.
4) be who i am . i will stop trying to live up to pple's expectations and jus be myself. i will do what i think is right instead of what others think is right..yesyes? haha yarh then i can stop putting so much pressure on myself and enjoy my life more! haha yaye what a perfect idea..i thinkk im getting smarter! hehs.
5) i will PUT IN 100% EFFORT and my veryvery best in whatever i do. that way i'll enjoy what i do more! haha another smart idea..haha im realli getting genius-ed! okaes..a quote here 'u put in your best effort not to please others but becos that's the only way to enjoy ure work' haha wads the point of doing it when u dont wanna do it and the onky 50% of ure effort is there. i'll either do it to the best i can or not do at all! hahas.
6) manage my time well. basically this's quite similar to the first and third one..in fact i thinkk it'sa combination of both. so not much to be said but it's veryvery impt too!
7) lastly to KEEP UP ALL THESE RESOLUTIONS! haha or it'll totally defeat the purpose of even having them. i will watch less tv and pay attention to my homework..which is not smthg very interesting but at least it'll help me achieve my goals rite? : )
Saturday, January 22, 2005
HATE THE LIFE IM LEADING NOW. ITS LIKE SO TOTALLY MEANINGLESS AND IM JUS T LIKE LIVING ON FOR THE SAKE OF LIVING. THAT IM NOT LIVING FOR MYSELF BUT FOR OTHERS. I FEEL SO DUMB. I WANNA COMMIT TO THINGS THAT I LOVE AND FIND MEANINGFUL. PLACES THAT I WANNA GO AND LIVE IN I CANT THINGS THAT I WANNA DO STUFF THAT I WANNA LEARN IMPACTS THAT I WANNA MAKE I JUS CANT . WAIT UNTIL IM LIKE INDEPENDENT? THERE'S LIKE SOO MANY THINGS OUT THERE THAT I WANNA SEE I WANNA HEAR I WANNA EAT I WANNA VISIT TO EXPLORE. SO MANY PLACES I WANNA LIVE IN. SO MANY THINGS I WANNA DO . IT'S MY LIFE! WHY AM I MADE TO DO THINGS THAT I'VE NVR HAD INTEREST IN OR DO SOME STUFF THAT I FIND TOTALLY MEANINGLESS? LIKE STUDYING MATHS..WHEN WILL I ACTUALLY GET TO CALCULATE ANLGES FROM X TO Y. YES ITS KNOWLEDGE BUT WADS THE USE OF THIS KINDA KNOWLEDGE WHEN ITS JUST GONNA GET FORGOTTEN SOMEWHERE 10 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD? WHY WASTE TIME DOING ALL THESE WHEN I CAN ACTUALLY USE ALL THESE TIME TO MAKE AN IMPACT ON OTHERS AND BRIGHTEN UP THEIR LIVES? OKAE MAYBE I SHLD JUS STOP WHINNING. I THINK U SHOULD JUS STOP READING THIS POST..IT;LL ONLY SCREW UP URE MIND..LIKE WHAT IM DOING TO MINE. BUT I WANNA HAVE A DIFFERENT KIND OF LIFE..SOMETHING MORE EXCITING MORE ADVENTUROUS MORE MEANINGFUL. I WANNA LEAD THAT KIND OF LIIFE THAT I TRULY WANNA LEAD..SOMETHING THAT MAYBE 50 YEARS LATER WHEN IM DYING I CAN SAY THAT I HAVE DONE ENOUGH AND MY LIFE IS REALLI MEANINGFUL THEN I CA LEAVE WITHOUT REGRETS. I WANNA VENTURE DOWN A PATH THAT FEW HAD VENTURED ON BEFORE..A ROUTE THAT WILL BRING ME STRESS FEAR YET WARMTH EXCITEMENT FRIENDSHIPS HAPPINESS SOMETHING THAT I CAN TELL MYSELF..YES, THIS 'S IS WHAT IM BORN TO DO. I DONT WANNA BE RESTRICTED BE CAGED DOWN ..I WANNA BE SUPPORTED BE LOVED. WHY DO SOME PEOPLE CAN JUS LIKE NOT LOVE IT NOT PUT THEIR EFFORT IT IN YET THEY CAN EXCEL IN THEM?
OKAES..I SHALL STOP COMPLAINING. I SHALL STOP THINKING OF COMPLAINING AND WHINNING WHEN SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE IN THE OTHER PARTS OF THE WORLD WILL DIE TO LEAD SUCH A LIFE LIKE MINE. WHEN SOME OTHER PEOPLE ARE BEGGING ON THE STREETS AND THEY HAVE NO FOOD NO DRINKS NO SHELTER NO LOVED ONES. OH WELLS..AT THE VERY LEAST I HAVE ALL OF THE STUFF ABOVE RITES? MAYBE IM NOT DOING THAT BADLY.
WHEN A PERSON IS MADE TO DO SOMETHING SHE DOESNT LIKE TO DO, HER DETERMINATION, PERSERVERENCE, BONDS WITH OTHERS AND BLAHBLAH ARE PUT TO TEST. MAYBE ITS REALLI NOT THAT BAD. FROM TODAE ONWARDS I SHALL STOP COMPLAINING OF WHY THINGS HAPPEN IN MY LIFE AND BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE AND WHAT I'VE RECIEVED FROM OTHERS. KNOW THAT THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE IN A MUCHMUCH WORSE STATEE THAN U BUT YET THEY ARE LIVING ON WITH PRIDE. EMBARK ON EACH NEW DAY WITH HOPE INSTEAD OF FEAR. I SHALL REMEMBER THAT WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE IS NOBODY'S DOINGS EXCEPT MINE..I MAKE WHAT HAPPEN IN MY LIFE..NOT OTHERS. I SHALL BE PROACTIVE AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY IN MY LIFE..ONLY I CAN CHOOSE WHAT I WANNA DO. I SHALL STOP TRYING TO LIVE UP TO PPLE'S EXPECTATIONS AND DOING WHAT I SHOULD DO..INSTEAD I WILL DO WHAT I THINK I WANT I FEEL IS THE WRITE THING AND WHAT I WANT TO DO. I WILL BE A FIRST RATE VERSION OF MYSELF, INSTEAD OF A SECOND RATE VERSION OF EVERYONE ELSE..I WANT BE ME, JUST PLAIN ME. I WILL NEVER CHICKENED OUT COS OF FEAR BUT VENTURE IT ALL THE WAY WITH CONFIDENCE. I SHALL START OUT EACH DAY WITH A RENEWED CONFIDENCE. I SHALL LIVE EACH DAY TO THE FULLEST THAT I CAN.
YES, THAT 'S A PROMISE TO MYSELF. I CAN DO THAT. YES, I CAN.
OKAES..I SHALL STOP COMPLAINING. I SHALL STOP THINKING OF COMPLAINING AND WHINNING WHEN SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE IN THE OTHER PARTS OF THE WORLD WILL DIE TO LEAD SUCH A LIFE LIKE MINE. WHEN SOME OTHER PEOPLE ARE BEGGING ON THE STREETS AND THEY HAVE NO FOOD NO DRINKS NO SHELTER NO LOVED ONES. OH WELLS..AT THE VERY LEAST I HAVE ALL OF THE STUFF ABOVE RITES? MAYBE IM NOT DOING THAT BADLY.
WHEN A PERSON IS MADE TO DO SOMETHING SHE DOESNT LIKE TO DO, HER DETERMINATION, PERSERVERENCE, BONDS WITH OTHERS AND BLAHBLAH ARE PUT TO TEST. MAYBE ITS REALLI NOT THAT BAD. FROM TODAE ONWARDS I SHALL STOP COMPLAINING OF WHY THINGS HAPPEN IN MY LIFE AND BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE AND WHAT I'VE RECIEVED FROM OTHERS. KNOW THAT THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE IN A MUCHMUCH WORSE STATEE THAN U BUT YET THEY ARE LIVING ON WITH PRIDE. EMBARK ON EACH NEW DAY WITH HOPE INSTEAD OF FEAR. I SHALL REMEMBER THAT WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE IS NOBODY'S DOINGS EXCEPT MINE..I MAKE WHAT HAPPEN IN MY LIFE..NOT OTHERS. I SHALL BE PROACTIVE AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY IN MY LIFE..ONLY I CAN CHOOSE WHAT I WANNA DO. I SHALL STOP TRYING TO LIVE UP TO PPLE'S EXPECTATIONS AND DOING WHAT I SHOULD DO..INSTEAD I WILL DO WHAT I THINK I WANT I FEEL IS THE WRITE THING AND WHAT I WANT TO DO. I WILL BE A FIRST RATE VERSION OF MYSELF, INSTEAD OF A SECOND RATE VERSION OF EVERYONE ELSE..I WANT BE ME, JUST PLAIN ME. I WILL NEVER CHICKENED OUT COS OF FEAR BUT VENTURE IT ALL THE WAY WITH CONFIDENCE. I SHALL START OUT EACH DAY WITH A RENEWED CONFIDENCE. I SHALL LIVE EACH DAY TO THE FULLEST THAT I CAN.
YES, THAT 'S A PROMISE TO MYSELF. I CAN DO THAT. YES, I CAN.
Friday, January 21, 2005
prefects' invest
went to prefects' invest todae. it was super cool and super nice and super funniee. love it loads..hahaha i think they realli put in loads of effort into it..can tell. like the music the props the transfer from scene to scene and script the acting was veryvery good. :))
realli enjoyed it except for the fact that i was sneezing throughout the whole show. haha-bleah- soo embarrassing..was trying to not sneeze but cannot cos its too ticklish then tried to sneeze softer but i came out as a super loud ahhhchooo. for the whole day i became the red nose reindeer and it's realli painful kae..sneezed like over 20 times then every time i sneeze need to use the nose muscle[is there one?] and the lung and the stomach muscle plus somemore my nose will expand in breathe haha. oh and not fogetting those trees which sarcrificed their lives so that i can sneeze in comfort in the tissues which amounted to this mountain on my desk. eeeks. haha
realli enjoyed it except for the fact that i was sneezing throughout the whole show. haha-bleah- soo embarrassing..was trying to not sneeze but cannot cos its too ticklish then tried to sneeze softer but i came out as a super loud ahhhchooo. for the whole day i became the red nose reindeer and it's realli painful kae..sneezed like over 20 times then every time i sneeze need to use the nose muscle[is there one?] and the lung and the stomach muscle plus somemore my nose will expand in breathe haha. oh and not fogetting those trees which sarcrificed their lives so that i can sneeze in comfort in the tissues which amounted to this mountain on my desk. eeeks. haha
yaye :))
haha yaye i finally got a new skin! dint realli like the previous one..too blue-ish and kinda shallow larh..but hope this's nicer? im not that sort who would go and up-date every day so im sure it's gonna stay stagnant for a few more weeks before i update again opps paiseh but can help being so lazy rites? haha
ooh u noe i found out smthg=) that Jean Henri Dunant person won the first nobel prize!! haha okaes maybe it was mentioned during lessons before but i dint hear it so i think it wasnt or maybe it was but i think it wasnt larh so yah. wonder how did he react. he must be grinning from ear to ear..but then again he looks like those kind of i-wont-grin person so maybe he jus had no reaction..hmm
fri todae. such a dread. haha rotting away at home..spent like 6hs online? haha whoa that's a new record! cool=) reading some books then decided that i've no idea what im reading about.
i need something to do! something to add some spice to my life to make it more meaningful and pephaps more stressful? i dont like the way im leading my life now. erm i noe it's like so shallow and silly to say that when so many people lost their lives and their loved ones in the tsunami and will give anything to lead the live im leading now.
sigh.
ooh u noe i found out smthg=) that Jean Henri Dunant person won the first nobel prize!! haha okaes maybe it was mentioned during lessons before but i dint hear it so i think it wasnt or maybe it was but i think it wasnt larh so yah. wonder how did he react. he must be grinning from ear to ear..but then again he looks like those kind of i-wont-grin person so maybe he jus had no reaction..hmm
fri todae. such a dread. haha rotting away at home..spent like 6hs online? haha whoa that's a new record! cool=) reading some books then decided that i've no idea what im reading about.
i need something to do! something to add some spice to my life to make it more meaningful and pephaps more stressful? i dont like the way im leading my life now. erm i noe it's like so shallow and silly to say that when so many people lost their lives and their loved ones in the tsunami and will give anything to lead the live im leading now.
sigh.
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
talentime auditions's results are out.
our malay dance dint get through. haha i dont noe. i realli dont noe. i dont noe why, i dont noe wad to actually say and i jus dont noe larh. was like totally cannot concentrate in class todae..keep spacing out and i dont think i even heard a word that the teachers said except for maths maybe.
but oh wells at least we tried rites? and it is all that realli matters.
ooh and for all the people who was so amused by our talentime..erms yarh our ncos drama and lvl dance and mass dance got through the auds..haha yaye!
our malay dance dint get through. haha i dont noe. i realli dont noe. i dont noe why, i dont noe wad to actually say and i jus dont noe larh. was like totally cannot concentrate in class todae..keep spacing out and i dont think i even heard a word that the teachers said except for maths maybe.
but oh wells at least we tried rites? and it is all that realli matters.
ooh and for all the people who was so amused by our talentime..erms yarh our ncos drama and lvl dance and mass dance got through the auds..haha yaye!
school
haha wanted to abandon this blog until the june hols but just cant resist the temptation of going online again. school dint turn out as badly as i thought i would be. it's actually realli fun..my classmates are like so so so much nicer than i thought. and u noe wad, 2 Courage has the class spirit ooh yes we're definately going to be a class worth remembering..haha oh wells.
so it's like now every time before a teacher goes off we're supposed to go like have a nice day. now they're like so impressed and like so happiee and stuff but after a while they'll get sick of it.
ding dong is much better as a form teacher than a teaching teacher. shes like so crappy and long-winded..luckily she only comes in in the morning or else i would have died..but u noe..besides her appearence her long-windedness her lameness shes realli not that bad..haha oh is she?
so it's like now every time before a teacher goes off we're supposed to go like have a nice day. now they're like so impressed and like so happiee and stuff but after a while they'll get sick of it.
ding dong is much better as a form teacher than a teaching teacher. shes like so crappy and long-winded..luckily she only comes in in the morning or else i would have died..but u noe..besides her appearence her long-windedness her lameness shes realli not that bad..haha oh is she?
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