how did things turn out to be this ugly. how did a sweet dream became a nightmare? now thinking bout it, since when? since when did htings became so bad that i dont even want to accept that it was that way. since when the excitment, passion, love, enthusiasim become dreadness and hatred? i love it for wad it used to be, really. really really really. my life revolves around it and i dint care wad others said about it..i was proud to be part of it. nothing but pride and passion. now, i find myself keep trying to convince myself that its all worth it. i know that i cant, isnt, and is never going to give up. somehow, it seems to be a responsibility. or maybe, i dont know. ' one day, you will believe it was all worth the while' or smth like that. really?

i will give anyhting to go back..

can we all stop. just stop, take a step back, and understand. the way you're doing it, we cant understand. not even when we're trying. yes, we're trying. we really are. you know how hard it is, the very few here whos holding it all up for so many others.. we're doing so cos we now truly understand how hard it is to do smth that you absolutely have no interest in, or even hate. we understand how they feel so we know its not their fault. and i believe, all of us who are holding it up here, we're doing it not for all the points or whatever positions that we've all heard so much about.. its for, for me its for wad it used to be. i believe theres a fairy tale out there and if we try hard enough, it will come back. do you know, how many times we broke down, how many times we had to tell each other: its okay, its not your fault, or: we can do it, cos we're all in this together and we're all be there for one another. can you rmb that we're humans, ppl who make mistakes. give us some room and some time..you dont see the effort we put in but can you jus trust us, its there. instead of being prejudiced, come and understand and see stuff frm our pt of view and feel our whirlwind inside.

take facts instead of opinions. sometimes you know, wad you see isnt really wad it is. you say we dont care. but we do. so much so that everyhting you say has hurt us. if youall meant it to be hurtful, okay you succeeded. how many times we got together and keep thinking and thinking through wad you say. buut somehow, it always end in anger and confusion. we keep suan-ing youall as well, but right now, we realised and we know we should stop. and see things frm your point of view as well. and see wad we dont see. can you do that as well?

take all that fake mask off and see through one another, then to SOAR AS ONE.
you know you can, if you try. we know you're supposed to wear that mask for htat whatevers sake but take it off a while, can you try?

right now, i hate you. im sorry.
but im giving hatred up for smth more worth my while to keep. i want that fairytale back. i heard that things were even more beautiful last time. and i wanna hear more. but more than that, i wanna creat it again.

re-ignite that passion in us all.