im not supposed to be blogging. but anw.
theres nothing wrong with me so yes you ppl can stop asking if im okay cos yupp, im sure i am. and thankyou for all those concerns, all my frens before i left for uk all those whom i talked to. it really helped. and all those nice ppl during uk trip. hahaha cant imagine my world without friends, like walking a tightrope with no support.
im alright, jus need time to recover and find myself and start yakking away nonstop again.
yet-who the world am i?
this is my favorite colour. say yeah. hahaha.
Friday, May 12, 2006
i suppose this's lke one of those times whereby i keep on reading other's blog and theres this urge in me to blog too.
ever felt, you dont know yourself anymore? like you knwo what others ee you as, who you used to be, and what al the quizzes say younare. but somehow, you feel, you can be so much more, you have so much more inside. they say its not you to do this and stuff, but you know you can you know you can be so much more. but other times, you know you can but you dont feel like. out of all the lousy feelings in the world, waht can be worst than this? you know you can , but you dont feel like. or you start thinking you can't.
history test's on monday. i kknow i must study, but i dont feel like. all the while, sylvias lke hurry go start! nownow, why arent i? why am i putting restrivtions on myself. i know i can. i knwo i can, when i believe, i can reach the sky.
and this's year has been really..changing? everyhting that everyone say..it sorts of lingers in my mind then i dont know wad to think anymore. shall i see the world as they do too?
youknowyouknow, im missing my old friends. all those ppl whom made up all my happyhappy times for the past two years. i get so worried thta i might loose them, but as i loose them, it seems so unreal. really, i'll give anyhting to go back. back with all of them. so many ppl left last year, with all the happy memories..all those who went to ip or graduated or jus got erased from my memories or stored at this hard-to-reach palce behind my brain.
we're doing this video for open hse to promote sc for our i&e proj. in the proccess, got to know so much more about sc and scgirls and wad others think of us. somehow, its so heartwarming. when they talk about being connected throught the spirits and stuff. i love sc. no matter where i end up, whoi become, i will be rooted with the sc values, always.
ever felt, you dont know yourself anymore? like you knwo what others ee you as, who you used to be, and what al the quizzes say younare. but somehow, you feel, you can be so much more, you have so much more inside. they say its not you to do this and stuff, but you know you can you know you can be so much more. but other times, you know you can but you dont feel like. out of all the lousy feelings in the world, waht can be worst than this? you know you can , but you dont feel like. or you start thinking you can't.
history test's on monday. i kknow i must study, but i dont feel like. all the while, sylvias lke hurry go start! nownow, why arent i? why am i putting restrivtions on myself. i know i can. i knwo i can, when i believe, i can reach the sky.
and this's year has been really..changing? everyhting that everyone say..it sorts of lingers in my mind then i dont know wad to think anymore. shall i see the world as they do too?
youknowyouknow, im missing my old friends. all those ppl whom made up all my happyhappy times for the past two years. i get so worried thta i might loose them, but as i loose them, it seems so unreal. really, i'll give anyhting to go back. back with all of them. so many ppl left last year, with all the happy memories..all those who went to ip or graduated or jus got erased from my memories or stored at this hard-to-reach palce behind my brain.
we're doing this video for open hse to promote sc for our i&e proj. in the proccess, got to know so much more about sc and scgirls and wad others think of us. somehow, its so heartwarming. when they talk about being connected throught the spirits and stuff. i love sc. no matter where i end up, whoi become, i will be rooted with the sc values, always.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
how did things turn out to be this ugly. how did a sweet dream became a nightmare? now thinking bout it, since when? since when did htings became so bad that i dont even want to accept that it was that way. since when the excitment, passion, love, enthusiasim become dreadness and hatred? i love it for wad it used to be, really. really really really. my life revolves around it and i dint care wad others said about it..i was proud to be part of it. nothing but pride and passion. now, i find myself keep trying to convince myself that its all worth it. i know that i cant, isnt, and is never going to give up. somehow, it seems to be a responsibility. or maybe, i dont know. ' one day, you will believe it was all worth the while' or smth like that. really?
i will give anyhting to go back..
can we all stop. just stop, take a step back, and understand. the way you're doing it, we cant understand. not even when we're trying. yes, we're trying. we really are. you know how hard it is, the very few here whos holding it all up for so many others.. we're doing so cos we now truly understand how hard it is to do smth that you absolutely have no interest in, or even hate. we understand how they feel so we know its not their fault. and i believe, all of us who are holding it up here, we're doing it not for all the points or whatever positions that we've all heard so much about.. its for, for me its for wad it used to be. i believe theres a fairy tale out there and if we try hard enough, it will come back. do you know, how many times we broke down, how many times we had to tell each other: its okay, its not your fault, or: we can do it, cos we're all in this together and we're all be there for one another. can you rmb that we're humans, ppl who make mistakes. give us some room and some time..you dont see the effort we put in but can you jus trust us, its there. instead of being prejudiced, come and understand and see stuff frm our pt of view and feel our whirlwind inside.
take facts instead of opinions. sometimes you know, wad you see isnt really wad it is. you say we dont care. but we do. so much so that everyhting you say has hurt us. if youall meant it to be hurtful, okay you succeeded. how many times we got together and keep thinking and thinking through wad you say. buut somehow, it always end in anger and confusion. we keep suan-ing youall as well, but right now, we realised and we know we should stop. and see things frm your point of view as well. and see wad we dont see. can you do that as well?
take all that fake mask off and see through one another, then to SOAR AS ONE.
you know you can, if you try. we know you're supposed to wear that mask for htat whatevers sake but take it off a while, can you try?
right now, i hate you. im sorry.
but im giving hatred up for smth more worth my while to keep. i want that fairytale back. i heard that things were even more beautiful last time. and i wanna hear more. but more than that, i wanna creat it again.
re-ignite that passion in us all.
i will give anyhting to go back..
can we all stop. just stop, take a step back, and understand. the way you're doing it, we cant understand. not even when we're trying. yes, we're trying. we really are. you know how hard it is, the very few here whos holding it all up for so many others.. we're doing so cos we now truly understand how hard it is to do smth that you absolutely have no interest in, or even hate. we understand how they feel so we know its not their fault. and i believe, all of us who are holding it up here, we're doing it not for all the points or whatever positions that we've all heard so much about.. its for, for me its for wad it used to be. i believe theres a fairy tale out there and if we try hard enough, it will come back. do you know, how many times we broke down, how many times we had to tell each other: its okay, its not your fault, or: we can do it, cos we're all in this together and we're all be there for one another. can you rmb that we're humans, ppl who make mistakes. give us some room and some time..you dont see the effort we put in but can you jus trust us, its there. instead of being prejudiced, come and understand and see stuff frm our pt of view and feel our whirlwind inside.
take facts instead of opinions. sometimes you know, wad you see isnt really wad it is. you say we dont care. but we do. so much so that everyhting you say has hurt us. if youall meant it to be hurtful, okay you succeeded. how many times we got together and keep thinking and thinking through wad you say. buut somehow, it always end in anger and confusion. we keep suan-ing youall as well, but right now, we realised and we know we should stop. and see things frm your point of view as well. and see wad we dont see. can you do that as well?
take all that fake mask off and see through one another, then to SOAR AS ONE.
you know you can, if you try. we know you're supposed to wear that mask for htat whatevers sake but take it off a while, can you try?
right now, i hate you. im sorry.
but im giving hatred up for smth more worth my while to keep. i want that fairytale back. i heard that things were even more beautiful last time. and i wanna hear more. but more than that, i wanna creat it again.
re-ignite that passion in us all.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Thursday, October 13, 2005
haha heh some of you wanted this right..paiseh for taking so long..here it is..the poem from poc05.=)
Thankyou for
Being in our lives
The paths crossed so briefly
Yet we wont forget
Thankyou for being here
To show us what seniors are
People who care
People we can count on
You showed us friends
Are not just to have fun with
But much more, those
We braved through all together
Cried together
Laughed together.
You told us to reach for the stars
Where the dreams lie
To believe, to pray
Having the courage to achieve
Having the faith to give in all
Then taking failures as motivation
To try till we succeed
You inspired us
Like angels from above
Our world lighted with your warmth
With your enthusiasm
You are not a passing scenery
From the windows of our lives
Because
You leave footprints in my heart
ohmann my com's weird..like everything on screen will turn out checkered and all the colours are wrong so haha i have no idea wad colour i jus used..cos all i see is black and white and grey and blue and red hahah yeaheverything looks so weird!
Thankyou for
Being in our lives
The paths crossed so briefly
Yet we wont forget
Thankyou for being here
To show us what seniors are
People who care
People we can count on
You showed us friends
Are not just to have fun with
But much more, those
We braved through all together
Cried together
Laughed together.
You told us to reach for the stars
Where the dreams lie
To believe, to pray
Having the courage to achieve
Having the faith to give in all
Then taking failures as motivation
To try till we succeed
You inspired us
Like angels from above
Our world lighted with your warmth
With your enthusiasm
You are not a passing scenery
From the windows of our lives
Because
You leave footprints in my heart
ohmann my com's weird..like everything on screen will turn out checkered and all the colours are wrong so haha i have no idea wad colour i jus used..cos all i see is black and white and grey and blue and red hahah yeaheverything looks so weird!
Monday, August 15, 2005
Sunday, August 07, 2005
poc2005
after tomorrow, everything will change .just like last year. for the better or the worse?
ncos wont be there anymore.
sec3s will take overas ncos.
WE will become sec3s.
sec1s will become sec2s.
its scary larh..poc04 seems like jus last week kind of thing..how did time mangage to fly so fast without my noticing it? will next year pass as fast too? then the next then whooosh we're out of redcross..abit the early larh but hmphh time flies. its scary..its scary when things changes just whe you think you can cope with it..then it just keeps on changing and changing and changing. but i wanna cling on to those times..those times last year which are longlong gone. can i freeze time? it'llbe cool.it'll be the best machine on planet earth!
ncos wont be there anymore.
sec3s will take overas ncos.
WE will become sec3s.
sec1s will become sec2s.
its scary larh..poc04 seems like jus last week kind of thing..how did time mangage to fly so fast without my noticing it? will next year pass as fast too? then the next then whooosh we're out of redcross..abit the early larh but hmphh time flies. its scary..its scary when things changes just whe you think you can cope with it..then it just keeps on changing and changing and changing. but i wanna cling on to those times..those times last year which are longlong gone. can i freeze time? it'llbe cool.it'll be the best machine on planet earth!
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